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Posted 10/9/2017 8:33 AM (GMT 0)

Lvg123 said...
I know this sounds morbid...but ever since I got since I almost want my successful friends and family to fail. I feel like a bad person for thinking that but I can’t help it. Some of my friends that are not smart are so successful now and itmake me really jealous. It makes me not want to talk to any of my friends anymore because I’m tired of hearing about their lucky and happy lives.


"Some of my friends that are not smart are so successful now"

Before you say things like this you may want to correct your grammar and spelling in your own post first.

And also.... It's not just the lyme making you feel this way. Plenty of people have lyme and they manage to maintain a good worldview.
Posted 10/9/2017 9:27 AM (GMT 0)
LVG don’t be too hard on yourself for these thoughts about your friend, it’s very hard to be honest about things like that and you are, there are people out there with no illness no suffering just wishing bad on people who have a better car than them or nicer hair or a better house.

You’re only human and going through a lot.

Give yourself a break. You’re not a bad person, stay strong stay positive we are all here for you smile
Posted 10/9/2017 4:22 PM (GMT 0)
lvg, I am assuming you are on either Mepron or Malarone right now?

These medications are known to cause pretty significant psychiatric side-effects. I believe it has been demonstrated that they go as far as to cause temporary changes to the brain.

By the second week of taking either of these, I was an emotional mess --all kinds of negative feelings, thoughts, and strong emotions that were not typical for me. Finally being aware of these side-effects helped me cope to some degree.
Posted 10/9/2017 8:37 PM (GMT 0)

MAF249 said...

Lvg123 said...
I know this sounds morbid...but ever since I got since I almost want my successful friends and family to fail. I feel like a bad person for thinking that but I can’t help it. Some of my friends that are not smart are so successful now and itmake me really jealous. It makes me not want to talk to any of my friends anymore because I’m tired of hearing about their lucky and happy lives.


"Some of my friends that are not smart are so successful now"

Before you say things like this you may want to correct your grammar and spelling in your own post first.

And also.... It's not just the lyme making you feel this way. Plenty of people have lyme and they manage to maintain a good worldview.

MAF249 - your post is not helpful...YES, neuro-lyme CAN cause these feelings she is experiencing. AND, some of the medications can add to psych symptoms - anxiety for one.
Posted 10/9/2017 9:12 PM (GMT 0)

Girlie said...

MAF249 said...

Lvg123 said...
I know this sounds morbid...but ever since I got since I almost want my successful friends and family to fail. I feel like a bad person for thinking that but I can’t help it. Some of my friends that are not smart are so successful now and itmake me really jealous. It makes me not want to talk to any of my friends anymore because I’m tired of hearing about their lucky and happy lives.


"Some of my friends that are not smart are so successful now"

Before you say things like this you may want to correct your grammar and spelling in your own post first.

And also.... It's not just the lyme making you feel this way. Plenty of people have lyme and they manage to maintain a good worldview.

MAF249 - your post is not helpful...YES, neuro-lyme CAN cause these feelings she is experiencing. AND, some of the medications can add to psych symptoms - anxiety for one.


I did not mean to be insensitive, I ended up reading more posts after I had posted that and now realize the full situation. what I said may have been harsh in this setting.

although, on the other hand, neuro-lyme, medication side effects, and stress etc.etc. are not a pass for us to look down on others or wish ill-will upon other people.

I wouldn't want this forum to ever be a place where people come and just expect to be agreed with and coddled for whatever they have going on. Since we represent a disease that already has a negative connotation associated with it, we should be more kind. we should set an example of how we expect to be treated by others despite the way the medical community and biology itself is treating us.
Posted 10/10/2017 12:54 AM (GMT 0)
I don't feel that you were being insensitive. I think you reached your breaking point. I think A LOT of people have negative thoughts at one point in their lives or another when something absolutely terrible is going on. When I was in grad school, my mother got breast cancer for the first time, and we thought she would die. I saw a bunch of girls I didn't know laughing and having a great time, and I got incredibly angry at them inside. My world was crumbling, so how could anyone be having FUN? I remember the feeling so clearly. It was irrational of course, and I felt terrible about it since I'd never had that feeling before, but you can't always control how you feel about things. If we could, then no one would ever see a counselor or psychiatrist, and no one would ever take mood enhancing or stabilizing drugs. Don't feel bad about getting feelings off your chest, especially if hearing our responses helped you at all. I don't know about you, but I have NO ONE to talk to about this stuff. I have not personally met a single person with Lyme. Be gentle with yourself, ok?
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