borrelioburgdorferii said...
If it is any consolation I have these sorts of rage feelings. (I attribute it to a heavy detox load, after a cheat-day of eating/drinking mostly everything I wanted, whereas I usually do ok with keto/paleo).
I had one during a trip to the drugstore, they were out of my favorite body wash, it was the last thing on my list, and everything else was picked over and I didn't get the discount or quantity I wanted of those either. The car ride was weird, halos and reflections, feeling like my eyes wouldn't focus or were wall eyed or wanting bug out in two different directions, couldn't make much eye contact, weird impulses. So I felt a rage-quit low key legit angry feeling (like a toddler wanting to throw something) about not getting all the items on my list checked off (!) I had to make the list to remember 4 things to get in the first place, and like I said they were completely out of one thing I needed and I had strange intrusive thoughts and myopic attention at the same time if that makes sense.
And this is on low doses of Trintellix (Vortioxetine 5mg) which sorta mellowed me out enough to make the trip in the first place.
It's like I am almost full-on autistic with these symptoms which is why I don't like to go out much. And if I get weird reactions or the wrong sort of attention, I usually mention the word "autism" at some point in the conversation which sometimes betters my interactions if I happen to see the same cashiers, workers or manager again.
But I definitely don't like being like this, it's a depressing and angst-ridden way of living.
Yes many of my symptoms make me behave like I’m autistic as well. It is terrible, how do you deal with it? Are you getting any better with treatment? Thanks for the response, I feel less crazy haha