Doing Too Much

When I feel better, I do more. And then I relapse, or crash, or some other term that means I get really disabled again. How can we know how much we are able to handle? How long should we do less than we feel capable of just in case it's too much? Sometimes I know when I am pushing myself, but other times I feel like I can handle things and turn out to be wrong. I assume one day I will be able to do things without relapsing, crashing, etc. I assume that at some point my last crash will indeed be the final one.

Just looking for support and others' experiences.

saraeli - Can totally relate to what you mention about doing too much. It is frustrating. Start feeling better then it makes you want to do more. As you mention, even when you don't think you've overdone it still happens.

I have been as bad as it has been for the last month or so. I believe it's EBV causing a lot of it. This morning I had to go set sound and announce a 5K race in downtown Atlanta. Got up at 4:50 am to be there setting up before 6:00. Now I am praying for the next-few days I don't pay for doing so.

Immune systems mess with us.

I have no answers for this but can relate. I have been very blessed in that when I overdo it, I don’t crash hard and become bedridden or housebound or anything like that.

I tend to push myself too much all the time just because I am determined to try to live as normally as I can and do things I enjoy.

There have been times when I was already herxing, and I would get out and go somewhere to be outside. Just being out in the heat and sun, as much as I enjoy it, has nearly wiped me out before. I guess for the same reason people feel exhausted after going to the beach.

I have also had many times when I felt good and was out somewhere walking around, and I could feel it coming. Like my body suddenly ran out of gas, and I was stranded. I just look for a place to sit down or at least lean on something until I get enough strength to get back to the car. Too bad I don’t have a visible gas gauge to see when the tank is almost on empty.

It’s kind of a scary feeling, and it can happen fairly suddenly. Still, there are always faint signs before it actually hits me. Unfortunately, I don’t tend to heed them, I guess because so far the consequences haven’t been that debilitating for me.

Sara,

I randomly came across this tonight. You posted this almost 2 years ago. I have a feeling you don’t crash much anymore but wanted to ask. How are you these days with overdoing it and suffering consequences?

I just cut the grass yesterday. I did almost the entire yard and would have finished if the battery hadn’t died. Last summer, I couldn’t even do 1/2 the yard without feeling like I was dying. I could barely walk around the block last June. By the holidays, I was going for long walks most every day.

Hey, Sara! That’s funny😃. That’s awesome that you are able to do all that!! That’s definitely more than I’m capable of. I am staying in my car. Spending time in prayer for God’s direction on what to do/where to go instead of freaking out every day and getting into mental holes trying to figure things out for myself.

I went in some stores yesterday and realized I am still very sensitive to mold and chemicals. Was feeling increased pain after that and today. My bucket is still quite full of toxins. I am very grateful, though, that I am able to go for long walks and do more physically.

I am tired of trying to figure things out and “fix” myself. I am trying to focus on spiritual health and praying for divine healing, direction, and restoration. It’s time. There’s nothing impossible with God. I have always known that on a mental level, but I need to get a deep, spiritual revelation of Him that changes everything. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense.