@JaSon2233
JaSon2233 said...
This is my current state. Totally bedridden and almost catatonic. I am just gonna keep treating. Bart is so deep in all my tissues, brain, etc. Its an insane hellish game. Killing bartonella literally degenerates my body with all the deep tissue inflam. But I think i am past the point of no return. I burnt the boats and gotta win this battle.
Perhaps helpful, If i take the combination of tramadol and ativan, I can function at a higher level and experience some semblance of quality of life, albeit momentary. Not something that many people like to do often. I'm more scared of benzo withdrawal than tramadol, so i make sure not to keep increasing doses and don't do it every day. But when ur quality of life is so low and ur really in those dark layers of hell, I think you gotta lean hard on pharma, not the natural supplements.
This is very sad and all too familiar to my own experience. I have been in a catatonic-fog and bedridden before, too weak and in too much muscular and joint pain to lift a coffee mug (I had been a multi-sport athlete in a past life) and it's every bit as painful and heartbreaking as this, and to hear it now again, and know how others suffer...well it's good to be aware that this thing can put people deep in the woods for a long time...and it makes me angry when people lose patience, but then again I understand how patience is lost after "treatment-fatigue" and this dragging on--
I hear you about
only some heavy pharmaceutical being powerful enough for those emergencies--I am trying to merely control or alleviate my symptoms, using very strong medicinal cannabis and alka-seltzer gold--which if I'm honest, if it weren't for those, I would be in darker places.
and I'm finding I'm hesitant to re-treat --with herb/ABX treatment right now---I feel myself slipping again, maybe I can ease into some light herbals/abx again like Cats Claw and Japanese Knotweed, but I had forgotten what herbs do exactly what again--Magnolia Bark extract, Skullcap, just restocked on bulk-powders of those again--had been taking Siberian Ginseng root powder more than the other herbs because it is more 'adaptogenic' (and I bought a lot of it at one time) than the scorched-earth antibiotic/antibacterial like I've experienced with die-offs from both herbal/pharm abx...
@Blakelysmom
I wish I had some more family-friendly and practical advice than this, but we all suffer... alone, or with family, or...
Anything to regain that spark of life, seeking novelty or maybe some activities/hobbies that were fun before??? say like light exercises, light obstacles training, light yoga and stretching, breathing, watching favorite shows, listening to favorite music
I would recommend electrolytes-replacement at the very least, would recommend Pedialyte or Drip-Drop, but I myself keep avoiding those because they contain sugar...
Alka-Seltzer gold may be a decent as a electrolyte-balancer...
warm soothing liquids, mild teas, and if your kid is not eating at all...maybe consider high-quality meal replacement--I use Orgain brand organic protein/superfoods to supplement my diet, as I can't always get to make/eat fresh nutritious foods (which are best for micronutrient nutrition...) anyway that's all I got for now.
Maybe phase in to a different routine to change things up, try some natural remedies, eat good foods and ease back on the heavier abx for a bit...could be treatment fatigue or just another painful low-point from Herxing. These bugs are stubborn, they put up a painful fight, what can I say...