I'm so sensitive

For the past few days, I've been a cry baby. I'm taking everything to heart and reading into things that shouldn't be read into. I feel so hopeless and I'm just not this way. Why does Lyme do this?

Oh Cajun, I know what you mean. I agree with Turquoise Sky that being sick just wears you down!!!! There are times that I just want to be "normal" like other people. I want to go swimming or walking in the sun and can't cause of the sun sensitivity I have cause of the meds or I want to get up early and am soooo tired that I can't. Though I can tell I'm getting better and it used to be so much worse. There is hope, really. Lyme jacks with your CNS, so yeah, you're gonna have emotional ups and downs. I started taking something called L-Theanine. I think it's an amino acid. I can't remember, but I noticed the first day I took it, I really felt good. I take it a few times a week and it's helping. Plus, my dr. prescribed B12 shots. My husband does them for me. B12 in the liquid form from a health food store is also very effective. No sugar or excessive amounts of caffeine, watching what you eat (mostly) helps me, too. Though sometimes a fun splurge cheers me up.

It's gonna be ok. And it's Ok to cry anyway. I've cried alot. I've dealt with this for a long time not knowing what was wrong. I have found that I am staring to enjoy the simple things in life more than I used to, as well. Perspective is everything.

Lyme bacteria can mess with neurotransmitters, which can affect mood. The Lyme can also mess with hormones, which also can mess with neurotransmitters (hence PMS). And my understanding is that some of the coinfections can also do this (Bartonella, Babesia).

And yes, chronic illness of any variety can contribute to this. I think it is important to allow yourself to feel the emotions instead of trying to resist them. And then it is also important to have activities, things, people in your life who can come along side you and help you through it when you are struggling to stay positive. And I think this support forum can play a big role in this for those who are comfortable sharing "in public." So take heart, you're not alone in this.

Cheers,

I just got to say that since I started IV Claforan for Bartonella I haven't cried or felt depressed and I wish I had done this weeks ago.......I have been normal and energetic and happy. Will let you know if this changes but I really think Bart causes the depression more than any infection and urge people with persistent bad moods to treat for Bart agressively. I was suicidal some days and could not stop crying most and I was so sick of hearing that I was hormonal.

Tink Rox,

I was taking the L-Thyanine(sp?) too but recently stopped because I started my cycle and slept most of the day. I take the Depo a shot and was not suppose to start, but I did for whatever reason. Im going to start taking all of my supplements again tomorrow. This cycle really threw me for a loop. That may be why I'm so emotional too.

I wanted to ask. How much B-12 are you taking and how often?

Razzle,

You always make everything make sense. Believe me, I don't hold it in. I cry so much sometimes that my entire face is wet. Then I get a terrible headache. Blah! Sometimes I wish I could hold it back.

Thanks for you expertise:)

Pcpc,

I'm so glad you are feeling better. That gives me hope to hang onto.

I agree about the Bart and I think that's what I have. I have all of the symptoms even though my test came back negative.

Keep us updated on everything!

Gorbybelle,

It does feel like it helps but I have to deal with sinus and bad headaches after, LOL. I cry pretty hard and I always get really bad headaches after.

I also get the bad sinus headaches after a cry.

Hope things get better soon! Sorry that you were unable to get out to the fair. You can make it up to her when you are feeling better. I don't know why it has to take so long, and I totally understand how you can forget to take something.

It's hard to for me to remember the evening primrose (it's blended with flax oil) if I don't have a salad, because that is where I put it usually. This month I am not even able to take it or it would run right through me, not to mention a salad. I am ready to be done with the abx, so I can eat real food again, other than bread and pretzels. I love the carbs, but usually try to avoid them, and now it's practically all I'm able to live on.

I don't know if you saw the post about You know you have Lyme if...I really think that I may have been the one who took the missing Doxycycline from my dog's bottle, there should have been two pills left and there was only one. I know I didn't give him three. I should have made up pill boxes for both of us. I had been on it too, so it wouldn't have hurt me at least!

Maybe were are on the same cycle from talking, I'm feeling not so stable almost panicked. Cant wait to see the doc wed.

Scorpio,

Yeah, I can make it up to her but I'm always making it up to her. For five years now. I know she understands but a kid is still a kid and they are still let down.....even though she doesn't show it. I was crying because I couldn't take her, then I was angry because she was going swimming at one of my ex friends house and that "I" couldn't be the one to make her happy. My husband is still friends with my ex friends husband. They have been friends since they were little and my daughter is friends with their daughter so I can't keep her away. It angers me that my ex friend hurt me so bad by just leaving me out to rot....never once asked me how I was doing....EVER! I was angry because she did me sooooo wrong, yet is still healthy and happy. I don't wish harm on her at all. I just want to know why all the good people have to suffer while the butt****** get away with everything? Sorry, I'm still pretty pissed after a year has passed. It's just not fair.

Yes, I remember you posting that. It gave me a good laugh right when I needed it. I was also glad that you didn't take anything that was harmful. It did remind me of things I do all the time though.

I cry almost every day... I just do.