Lymes Psychosis

Hi lymabean

I have not yet been officially diagnosed with Lyme, however I am due to see an LLMD in 2 weeks time.

I can completely relate to what you are saying, I have been through some very dark times, and for me the depression/anxiety side of things has probably been my worst symptom. Detached from reality is exactly how I would describe it!

I was recently prescribed some anti-depressants which I did not really want to take, however after now being on them for 1 month, I have to say they have really helped me get through, at least until I see the LLMD.

There have been times where I have literally wanted to die! Sounds dramatic I know. But I think in my case, not knowing what Im dealing with and also the poor treatment I have received from the medical sector on my diagnostic journey has definitely contributed to my psychotic state of mind.

I hope you find some relief soon, have you spoken to your doctor about how you have been feeling? I know it's really hard, but you have to think positive and do all you can to get through this, and there will be light at the end of the tunnel im sure.

Wishing you well

Lymabean -- severe depression and painful, physical anxiety are my worst symptoms as well (now that most of the aches and inflammation seem to be improved). I am seriously fearful of my mind and fear reaching psychosis. I am an out of town conference right now (staying in a literal hell hole), and feel especially detached from reality. I got home sick before I even got here. I can't think straight, I don't even know where I am a lot of the time.

Most days I feel that I am completely cracking up. I melt down. I lose perspective. Intense desire to escape or figure out a way to not be me anymore. Or, er, wish that I could have the old me back.

I am on meds for despression and anxiety, but am still suffering. When this hits it is so mentally painful I don't think I can continue anymore. It's not mere negativity or a depressed state because of this disease. It is a poison that has entered my brain. LLMS believes it is all Lyme and/or herxes. Some days I find my mental state too bad for this to be true.

But hearing from so many of you, I guess I will have to believe it.

Lymabean, I am sorry --- from the bottom of my heart. It seems that some of the physical pain can be aleviated, but not the mental parts. I feel for you, I sincerely do. All we can do is hope that we have a chance of improving w/ treatment.