For the past 6 months of this disabling illness, I notice that once a month, every 4 weeks (during my menstrual cycle) my symptoms get worse. Why is this?
Do the Lyme bacteria go through a reproduction cycle every month?
Last week was a better week than I had in a month, more energy. Now this weekend I am back in the cycle. Severe fatigue, pain, dizziness and the overall "flu" feeling is here.
It's all I can do to take care of my son, take a detox bath and eat. Otherwise I am laying in bed watching movies or surfing the Internet, today I was able to nap.
Sometimes my mind is on such overdrive I cannot nap, even though I am so fatigued. The fatigue is something you cannot even put into words, it is my worst symptom.
My husband has to do everything, the poor guy. We need groceries, the house is a mess and laundry piles up. I so badly wanted to take our son to get pumpkins, and have been struck down again. I want to do so much and my body doesn't let me. I cry too much, get angry a lot and then for a little while I move into acceptance. I know that it won't be like this forever, but being this sick for months on end sure takes a toll. I know that there is hope and I can beat this.
It's hard, I feel like no one really understands, expect for everyone on here.
I haven't started treatment yet, waiting to get in with an LLMD. My alternative Dr will start treating me with natural remedies....he warns me that I will get worse before better. I am scared of that. Worse? I am hardly able to function now.
I haven't worked and am on disability, this is what makes me angry most of all.
I worked so hard to get where I was in my career. I like to work, provide for my family, go shopping, cook, clean, and feel like a thriving productive member of society. UGGHHH!! All of that is gone.
Everything happens for a reason, just having a tough time coping with it all. I don't have very many good days and that's when it really drags you down.