Just didn't make it out of bed much today, had a horrible headache, left over from five seizures last night.
My body froze up for a while, and I couldn't go to the grocery store, which sucked because I wanted to pick out my own food, instead of making a list.
I am not sure if I am just depressed because of the situation, lyme took my job, my ability to drive, and most days it took my life.
I sit at home all day, most of the time, I don't feel well enough to do simple things. The only people I talk to is on the internet, on most days. What I found is even friends don't want to hear about
the Lyme , so I try to avoid the conversation.
I had a really stressful event, we lost our five year old dog, she went crazy , bit our older dog, bit my husband, and I got bit somehow also. We took her to the vet to see if they could do something to help us, but the doctor said the right thing to do was let her go.
It was horrible to have to let her go, and I think the stress is really affecting my Lyme. I couldn't find to many good reasons to get out of bed today, I felt horrible , headache, my body was in pain. She was more than just a pet to me, I loved her dearly , and it was the one of the hardest decisions I had to make.
So yesterday when the seizures hit me so bad, I was like screw you Lyme, but deep down, I wonder if I am ever going to get my life back, I feel like a prisoner in my own body. At times it's like a animal locked in a cage, I just hope soon the weather changes , and I could get outside some, may make my mood better.
The really sad thing is my older dog just sits by the door waiting for her to come back, she doesn't blame her for hurting her, and I think how amazing animals are, they love unconditionally. It's something we humans could learn from.
justme
Post Edited (Justme4508) : 2/24/2013 6:33:47 PM (GMT-7)