Loss of emotions

I suffer from depression and there are times I feel it's difficult to connect with people. Usually due to my feelings of apathy. I do not know if it's cause by Lyme. I am on this site because my husband was diagnosed with Lyme. He does get depressed, but he really wants the human connection. Why do you think it could be caused by Lyme? The only reason I think it is possible for me is that my husband has it and there is the possibility it can be passed on. Have you checked on the possibility it is Clinical Depression? It shouldn't be taken lightly. It can be debilitating. I think it's great though that you are thinking outside of the box and checking on other options for feeling this way. For all we know, there is a physical cause for Clinical Depression...and who knows, maybe it is due to parasites. BTW, you just made connection with us, and I hope you continue to do so.

Post Edited (Cat53) : 5/13/2013 4:30:49 PM (GMT-6)

Hi All,

it's a strange thing...
Over the years I have seen myself taking distance from others. There's 2 things I noticed:

A wrong kind of self-protection: I had Hodgkin's Lymphoma when I was an adolescent, so I was faced with a serious disease at young age. No one treated me as a young person, people were incredibly rude and harsh with me, you wouldn't believe how insensitive, rude and inhuman some people are. I lost a lot of friends, had no back-up, a mother that was psychologically abusive, no psychological support at the hospital, nothing.

I shut myself off, as a protection - I continued this throughout the years. Now the same thing is happening with these TBD's, you all know what I'm talking about. So I'm closing up again.

I see this partly (in my case) as a kind of self-protective reation. But I don't think it's a good one... so I'm working on that. Tough job - lol.

On the other hand, there's so much going on in our bodies... My dr told me that it's very normal to be depressed with these kind of illnesses. A lot of us have intestinal dysbiosis or leaky gut that can cause a decrease in serotonin production.

Have a look at this article about the gut-brain axis, this one is easy to read:

http://greenvillehealth.com/the-gut-brain-connection.htm

Before starting Lyme treatment, I was treated for leaky gut, and the results were incredible! After about 6 to 8 months I would all of a sudden say to myself (out of the blue) 'I feel genuinly happy!!??? what's going on?'

All that work has been undone now because of the Lyme treatment, but I'm sure I'll be better once treatment results kick in. I'll work on restoring my intestinal balance afterwards, there's no doubt about that! (That's why I think it's really important to get tested for food allergies, cause they are a huge strain on the intestinal health).

Throughout the years I noticed that I've become more of an outsider. I don't enjoy the things others enjoy, things I enjoyed before. It's been a while, but one of the places where it was very obvious was when I was going to a club/pub. I just couldn't have fun, didn't see the purpose of it, thought it was ridiculous to be extatic with dancing or music. I couldn't understand what I was doing there, although I really wanted to have a good time. It's not that I find myself to be 'different' from the others, at all. I really wanted to have a good time, but it didn't work.

Or like Cat, I just sit there, (here comes a Dutch proverb - lol) like a cow watching a train pass by. Total apathy.