Well, I plowed through Thanksgiving weekend and by Sunday night I realized I had made a bad choice. My busyness started last Wednesday. By Friday I still felt pretty good. I was thinking "hey, maybe this thing is totally in its way out". Saturday I could feel myself winding down, staring to move in "slow motion"....but I kept going.
Sunday I managed to get the tree up and decorated...but by Sunday night, after my bath, I felt like I had taken 10 steps backwards.
Today, I didn't want to get out of bed or be around anyone. Sigh.
I did a self evaluation of the past 5 days and discovered I basically put my health on the shelf to "get stuff done". I didn't take baths, because I know those can wipe me out. I didn't "check in" with my body when it was whispering it was tired, and...sad but true, I did not get enough sleep. Up late and woke early.
I still fight the mental battle that, at the moment, I can't do everything I once did. That is really hard to relent to.
But the reality of it is...I am battling lyme. I cannot ignore that fact. My body is doing the best it can with what I give it. (Sorry, body, I let you down there for a few days).
I do have some positives though....a month ago, I wouldn't have made it 5 days at the pace I just did. I would have collapsed after day 2 no doubt. So that is a good thing. I also haven't had to battle "monster brain" in a month. I definitely will take that.
So even though I am a bit discouraged at the way I feel at this moment, I still am encouraged that there is a marked improvement.
