Wow. I wish I'd had access to your brains, Lymie though they may be, 25 years ago!
Thanks Traveler for all the direction you gave me above. Much appreciated. I will do my best to abide. ;-) And, I'm very happy for you that you are feeling healed. That's wonderful. Congrats on your victory.
A few comments in answer to above:
1) Yes, in support of SLML's response: I have found Zeolite (and Benotinite) to be the key means of removing the ammonia. I also experience off-gassing of pesticides every single time I consume zeolite.
2) I had leaky brain for several years as a result of encephalitis. A very sticky clear fluid, tinted ever so slightly with red, leaked daily out of the right side of my skull as what appeared to be my body's means of releasing pressure from the swelling. That fluid quickly filled and hardened in my ears, forming cauliflower ears (a real advantage when confronted with macho guys around town because they see them and assume I was a wrestler or boxer, which I was most definitely not ;-). Strangely, however, I don't recall the ammonia being present during that time, but then again the mind was not exactly clear through those years. I found a significant reduction in that swelling via extensive sweating in an infrared sauna. Why, I have no idea other than the obvious release of heavy metals; the soothing reduction of inflammation all-over my body; and the removal of the copious amounts of corticosteroids, from my eczema-ridden childhood, through my skin thanks to that deep, steady heat. What a relief it was to watch and feel the swelling diminish and to be able to eventually look myself in the mirror and not see my version of Mr. Pumkinhead. ;-)
3) I do so appreciate and respect those individuals that have healed from Lyme and all of those who are still in a discovery process! I am not yet one of the fully healed and still journeying. I have had a illness-filled life that started at birth, with all sorts of crazy traumas and stories that are incredible, but I decided years ago that it was all a combination of karma and a preparation for being of service to others–and that I'd just have to enjoy the wild ride. That alone has been the most helpful treatment I've followed for the lyme: it's amazing to watch it all play out as a fairly (though not fully) detached viewer. I feel zero self-pity where once that was my daily state of mind (mostly in my 20s). Instead, I feel a deep sense of honor for the amazing biological processes and a wonderment of even those pathogens, their biofilm, and adaptation abilities. In a strange sense, I see them as friends, companions on the same bioterrain. (Perhaps that seems crazy to you.) What is healing, really, but a change in perception?
For instance, I was "on fire" for many years and so could not sleep, nor wear clothing. I was covered in staph infection for 4 years and was immobilized with myofascia that was so tight that I could feel the full span of it move from my toes to my head each time I moved any part of my core. The pain was beyond comprehension. That developed quickly when I was 22. Could I handle that level of pain now? Absolutely no way, not even close. I look back on the healing from that set of traumas and realize that so much of it was the slow, but steady change in my perspective, my thinking on the matter. I think I've healed mostly from mindful (attitude, perspective, thinking) and/or spiritual means. Love towards this internal ecosystem, which I'm now trying to feel towards other human beings again, though that's a slow process for me.
The one thing that I do still feel annoyed at, within myself, is how self-centered I was for many of those years: really, who was (am) I to think that the "I" was more important than all the biological parts and systems that comprise this body and mind? (I once met a guy who used "we" to refer to just himself. I mocked him back then, but now get it. Though I will continue to use the first person, thank you.) I'll never forget the number of times I felt better thanks to focusing my energy and time on helping others, even if only for 5 minutes. It's funny how in-born the human sense of importance is. I think Lyme has been a good teacher in giving me a reality check as to the complex wonderment and continual balancing act of all of life, of which I am just an equal, yet infinitesimally small part. To think of the incredible amount of life that occurs inside this body each and every second; the amount of love that is exchanged across all landscapes of human and other animal activity; and the energy that courses through everything, constantly: it's just mind-boggling! That view helps to soothe my fear.
Thank you for receiving these words. I feel less alone with each exchange. ;-)
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