Hi Roxie,
I have a cancer history, and each time I need a checkup I start to freak out, but I don't let it last too long. I force myself to think that untill the results aren't there, I might be freaking out for nothing at all and be loosing energy for nothing.
I have lumps in my breasts, and had radiotherapy on them, so cancer threat is so much higher. I need to get tested every 6 months (but I don't, cause although the dr gives the order for an ultrasound, some radiotherapists want to do a mammogram each time, which is very harmfull, I'm just 35 yo.). I need to use all of my self controll to switch that anxiety button... meditation helps to stay calm. If needed, I use Passiflora incarnata (above the ground parts of the plant) for a while, it tempers the anxiety. Have you tried Passiflora Incarnata?
I am in Europe, and it is very very rare to get results straight from a lab. I had it happen once, at Infectolab in Germany, that's all. All the other labs say the same thing: we are not allowed to send results directly to the patient. The ordering dr is the one who will receive the test results, you will have to wait, cause it is up to him to interpret the test results.