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Posted 12/16/2014 4:23 AM (GMT 0)
What would be most important to you? What would you be most proud of? What would be your biggest regret? What would you do different? What would be you advice for those you'd be leaving behind?

Really it could happen to any of us at anytime. I feel so mortal at this point in my life. Why do we always wait until the last second to hold our children tight and tell people how we really feel? If everyone lived like they were dying tomorrow, like really dying, imagine the peace that would overcome the world... sappy and cliche? Fine by me! I'm hugging my loved ones extra tight from now on!

So much of my life has been wasted on stress and worry. And stress and worry are so unproductive. My hope is that the majority of my life is lived with this mentality. I want to make every moment count. I think that can be accomplished through love.

Now, let's see how long it takes me to post about how much I hate life hahahaha!
Posted 12/16/2014 5:45 AM (GMT 0)
The other night when i was laying in my bed at night, and i felt my heart beat slowly but with great big whollups of beats, i was worried. I was worried how hard it would be for my wife to come here and find me in the morning dead. How devastated she would feel. It was 3 am. I had to make that decision, do i call her now and tell her that i am worried i might die tonight, or should i just try and relax and make it on my own till the next day. I did not phone, but i can tell you that at first before i took my own pulse in bed, i thought that there was an earthquake here because i felt my bed shaking from the action my heart was doing in my chest. The thing is, i was not worried about my children since they are both now estranged more than a decade each. They made that personal decision by themselves, and when it came down to me that night last week, i was about the one person who is my whole support system now and that is my dear wife. xfmlg
Posted 12/16/2014 7:57 AM (GMT 0)
Mms?????
Posted 12/16/2014 8:57 AM (GMT 0)
What is Mms?????
Posted 12/16/2014 11:11 AM (GMT 0)
http://jimhumble.is

Post Edited By Moderator (Traveler) : 12/16/2014 8:14:44 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/16/2014 3:21 PM (GMT 0)
I would greatly encourage all to look deeply into it before considering it's use. It has a very high potential to be very dangerous if used without very, very close Dr. supervision. One person has said that Dr. K uses it in some patient's therapy - but it's not on his site that I can find, so that's has yet to be seen.

Otherwise, it's said to turn into industrial bleach when mixed as directed and people are told to drink it. In your own words: " I stop it because i was afraid for side effects" www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=30&m=3258002&g=3259450#m3259450

This is totally off topic of this thread though. You have already started one thread on it, and if you wish to start another thread on MMS, that's fine, but you are not allowed to "push" your chosen treatments onto others here.
Posted 12/16/2014 3:54 PM (GMT 0)
Yea, but nobody knows any side effects. I drink it again.

Amazing, how can i use my brain again!!
Posted 12/16/2014 4:43 PM (GMT 0)
about the only positive thing that Lyme has done for me is to make me realize that I was not appreciating life to its fullest. I thought that I would live forever and can think of many days that I wasted doing nothing because I had so many more so I could afford to waste some.

Now? each day I live like it is my last. I can relate to xfmlg because I have gone to bed many nights KNOWING that I was not going to wake up the next morning.

Early in my illness I wrote my will, I put my wife's phone and address on my tools at work so they could be shipped to my wife upon my death. I also lock my phone's screen but made sure that on the locked screen it says to call my wife's number "if found". Emergency personnel will not be able to search my phone for ICE numbers because it is locked so this will tell them who to call in an emergency.

This ill feeling has made me leave the bathroom door unlocked to the bathroom and at work I make sure not to be alone and when I walk I make sure to do it in a well traveled path so that someone can find me if I collapse. My wife and I also made our own "distress signal". If I grab my wife by the neck at night she was to call 911 IMMEDIATELY meaning that I am in trouble (heart attack, unable to breathe, etc). That was our code to let her know that I needed help. Poor girl, she has spent many sleepless nights watching over me at night whenever I told her that I wasn't feeling good.
Posted 12/16/2014 11:28 PM (GMT 0)
Traveler...I had nothing to do with these mms comments. LOL.

Life is so crazy when you just don't know what the next moment brings. It's so scary to wonder every second, if we will make it.

Anyway, IHL, I think this is a very good post. Thought provoking...and makes us introspect about important things....So here it goes:

If I died tomorrow,
What would be most important to me: that I made up with those who I harmed, spoke bad about, was irritable with, and got their forgiveness. (then I could go in peace).

My biggest regret: talking disrespectfully, and getting irritated with my mom. Not calling her back. (She can be very annoying, and I have no energy for her. She can be needy, and ya never know when she'll switch personalities with you....but I want to b a good person and do what is right regardless).

What would I do different? I love this question....Hhhmm. Ok, I'm human, so priority to change would be...I guess never picking up my phone to anyone, when i feel edgy and irritable. Never hanging out with friends/family when I feel irritable and angry. ....It's simply too risky, any little thing now 'ticks' me off, and it's not ok, to put it on others. I think this is practical, doable, and can minimize a lot of things I feel about in a simple way....Once this is mastered, I'll have to think of more.

What would I be most proud of: I would be proud of the person and character I became...not yet, if this would be tomorrow...still got to do some self improvement. But, good question, I should remember this.

Advice to others: Enjoy life, love life, live it to fullest! Dream big, live your dream. You can become, whatever you want to become. U only live life once, so accomplish, enjoy every minute....and always be nice!

IHL - we are mortal...so I think it's good you're realistic about this. I feel so bad for these people who chase money, fame, honor...and loose themselves in the mist. This disease is letting us feel reality on such a deep level...we are lucky. We will get better, and live our lives with this deep understanding, that the typical won't get. This will cause our lives to be sooo different - rich, and deep! As you said IHL - you hope to live the rest of your life with this mentality....ME TOO!!!
Us lymies are soo lucky! We r not going to wake up on death beds and start giving hugs! (except I have no-one to hug).

Post Edited (dying2getwell) : 12/16/2014 7:37:32 PM (GMT-7)

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