I just need to hear it's going to be ok

In the last year Ive started having convulsions I can't control. I don't know what it is other than my nervous system going crazy. I don't want anyone to see this so today when it started happening I hid in a closet. And someone opened it and saw me. I am so embarrassed and I can't talk to people anymore. I can't get the words out. So I say whatever will come and I sound nuts half the time. My memory has become so bad I can't remember faces names or have visual memories of my past. I have better portions of days but not good days anymore.
i vomit daily and can't do things with my brain I used to and have constant joint pain and nerve pain. Really the symptoms are a lot to deal with and still try to work. I had finally been able after a long stint stuck in bed daily to have a job but now I feel like I'm going downhill fast.
I'm sick of feeling helpless. I would give anything to be able to see the doctor. I can't afford the right doctor so I just don't get any healthcare anymore. I don't even feel sorry for myself I feel like so many of the people with this illness have lost so much that I just feel sad for everyone. I wish I could fight more for this to change for the better for everyone but I can barely get through each day.

Girlie thank you. It means the world to know you understand.
I haven't been able to get treatment for about a year now because of finances so I just try to do anything on my own that I can.

Roots-it will be ok but you need to start treating with herbals if you can't afford to see an LLMD.

I don't think it's your nervous system. I believe that it's neuro Lyme and the issues are caused by swelling/pressure in your head. I had many of the issues you are mentioning.

http://www.columbia-lyme.org/patients/ld_lyme_symptoms.html This breaks down the stages of Lyme well. I had pretty much everything listed in "Late Neurologic Lyme Disease" about 13 + months ago and while I have a ways to go I'm far on my journey to health.

There are many people on here who can assist you with good herbal protocols. A year ago I would have needed someone to write out what I needed. I couldn't have read a book. If that's where you are ask for that specific kind of help. This is the right place to get help.

Hang in there
Janet

Roots Ruderalis,
First of all, I apologize for not seeing your post yesterday, secondly, I'm so sorry for what you are going through.

I would say that it's time to re-evaluate for you. What have you been doing? What can you add in? Because whatever it is that you are doing now, clearly isn't working.

I would start by saying that you aren't detoxing well enough - do you know if you have the MTHFR type gene mutations that prevent the body from detoxing well?

What have you been doing for some treatments? Anything?
If you can explain these things, we can start offering you suggestions that you can consider and figure out what will work best in your situation.

I used to have seizures and these episodes of extreme shaking that I could not control - I was fully conscience, but couldn't stop or control the shaking in any way - it would get so violent that it would shake me right out of a chair, recliner, couch, and even an exam table in front of 2 different doctors. I believe that is related to herxing or stress - or at least for me it was.

The same thing with the memory. I had lost all working memory when I had a very high load of toxins. I literally couldn't remember something for more than 5 minutes, and if pushed, I couldn't even come up with my own name. But I have recovered from that.

As soon as you are up to it, list what you are currently doing for detoxing and treatments (if anything) and let us help you. Just be sure to start off with each and every new thing very slowly an never add in more than one new thing a week. We can try to help keep you functional so you can continue to work, so start all new things on a Saturday or even Friday night, so you have the weekend to recover if needed.