Bad day

Depression and anxiety not going away

I'm sorry :( I've been struggling with this myself lately.

I wish I had advice to offer. I've become very headstrong about depression and anxiety. I force myself to recognize that it will pass. It always does so there's no reason to believe I'm doomed to feel that way forever. Which is an extremely difficult notion to accept when even 20 seconds feels like hours.

Music has been my saving grace lately. I always want to listen to sad songs when I feel like that. So if I have to I listen to one sad song and then put on something happy and upbeat.

I've also been trying to find the source of my crappy mood. Sometimes there is something that's bothering me so I'm proactive about fixing it as best as I can. If it's for no reason at all I take comfort in the fact that I have bugs in my brain and I'm doing my best to kill them and reclaim my brain. "This too shall pass" is my mantra. I repeat it over and over.

If you have animals they can be really comforting. I'll sit and pet my dog for 10 minutes and feel much more calm. And sometimes I get lucky and she farts or snorts (she's a 100 pound American bulldog) and it makes me laugh and breaks it up a little.

I know for me I'd rather not be around other humans when I'm at my worst. But if you feel like opening up maybe there's someone in your life who you could talk to. Sometimes being honest and telling my guy I'm feeling anxious really helps. Sometimes it doesnt.

Anyway, hold on tight and know that better days are ahead. Be kind to yourself and give yourself a pat on the back from me. It's not easy to go through depression and anxiety. I know I'd rather be in excruciating pain than feel anxious. Know that you're strong and there really are other people out there that get it. Feel free to email me if you want. From one anxious person to another I'll be hoping something makes you smile and laugh today. Relief will come.

Couple of bad days here too.