bedtime cowdens doze with 10 minutes warning loo alert

Hi.
sorry for asking about this.Not so lady like a questionI am bit embaressed
anyone have same as me?.the bedtime cowdens doze
10pm within 10 minutes of taking this.I am in toilet with bad dioreah. This goes on until 1am
I have to pump in the imoduim.Or it would not stop,Id be up all night
I dont have this drastic reaction with the other 3 times of day it is taken
i do not eat at night?

elaine

Hi Healing98.
how are you
THank you for your reasing my post and your answer
i notice a kind of hot burning feeling in stomack and after i take night time cowdens
Yes i have those sounds and cramp

it started semi solid then watery, its really annoying as i cant go to bed,As im in wheelchair and have severe muscle weakness in arms legs
so i cant get in out out bed every few minutes for 3 hours into chair and to the loo
im whizzing along the hall in powerchair.It upsets me this at night time.

iv used fibrogel from gps before
bowel movements, i am a wheelchair user I am in bed a lot every day when im not in bed im either lyying flat on sofa Or sitting in wheelchair short periods. As i get to weak to remain sitting up right . Lying down supports my legs as they tremble shake with weakness
my loss of mobilty is one of my worst syptoms tHIS FIRST IS DRUNKEN EXHAUSTION IN MY BRAIN LOOK SPACED OUT my words get garbeled .get confused disotrientaed, i fear things i do i have denmentia setting in at 48 years old. Sticking boiling kettle in fridge topples over hits my foot plate . Forget im hgolding this move to bedroom Hit door frames as im spaced out ,I try to sit kettle on top of tea container,thinking its kettle stand,It falls over missing my legs,As i sit below in power chair .Cant remeber whos my son or hubby Andrew callum i say Candrew jumbeling them together. My son laught As i try to speak to him and it comeas out all garbeled He says what arte you trying to say. i look at him .i cant remember .this happened gradulayy Year 1 to 5 before i was using a wheelchair indoors.Year 3 mobility scootor outdoors.Before 3 my legs went weak numb gave way A flucutating comming and going

my usual problem is bowels dont empty in one go
i can be on loo few rabit dropping, get of my raised disabled loo seat,into my chair waah my hands
then oh no back on again few more dropiings
this happens every day quite a lot

or if i dare eat veg/fruit salads. mayonaise curry sauce or anything spicy.or pasta sauses
il get dioreah
my son and hubby have chinese takaway on saturday.as they watch football
i am unable to cook due do severe weakness in arms,so hubby does all household tasks and shopping
if a have even a cfew chips diped in curry sauce
im off to loo with direah
iv had colonosopy and endoscopy in 2009 was normal

last night i did a test had no dinner eat just few plain sandwitched and gamon.
to test if it was food that caused it
I still was on loo 10mintes after my night time cowdens
So today i had morning doze at 7am will have lunctime at 11am
dinner doze at 2 or 3pm
night time at 6pm
so it not on loo up to 1am

i see what your saying not take night time cowdens,does this not mean The plan will have no effect?il try it tonight 1 night .Thanks for the suggestion

hugs for your kindness thanks

elaine
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Elaine:

Thank you for the additional information. From your description, it sounds as if your digestive tract is very delicate and many things upset it. I understand completely because I too had this issue. It was so severe that for two years my diet consisted of legumes, white rice, chicken, eggs, corn tortillas, one banana a day, and once a week a small portion of beef. Spices (chilis, black pepper), vinegar, citrus, tomatoes, fish, onions, garlic, hot food, mayonnaise, dairy food, nuts, and most vegetables irritated my stomach and I would either get diarrhea or severe cramping.

I too had a colonoscopy and an endoscopy and everything came back normal. I was put on Amoxicillin, Clarithromycin and a proton pump inhibitor for possible H. Pylory but it did not help. It seemed as if I had these micro ulcers that the endoscopy missed. The pain radiated from the esophagus, from the stomach lining and the lower intestine.

As Traveler suggested, probiotics are very helpful. The thing about probiotics though is that there are so many out there that you have to be very selective as to which ones you take. Going with some product off the shelf that is advertised heavily on TV may not be your best choice.

The digestive acid kills much of the beneficial bacteria in certain probiotics so it is best practice to use the type of probiotics that are kept refrigerated. A high count probiotic with multiple strains of bacteria and yeast will yield the most benefits. There are certain probiotics strains that are specific in alleviating diarrhea and some that promote diarrhea so you must choose wisely.

You may wish to search here on this forum as to the type of probiotics that Lymies find most helpful as we have had this discussion many, many times. There is also a section on this in the post for new folks that you may want to read. Some of the probiotics that some folks here use are Green Vibrance, Now brand 10-100 Billion as well as VLS3 probiotics (prescription class probiotics) among others.

As far as other products that are beneficial to the digestion process; I found licorice to be extremely helpful. It helps protect the lining and restore the protective mucus and it is beneficial against Lyme. Curcumin is another great product with multiple benefits.

And guess what? about two months ago I switched Lyme doctors and this new doctor prescribed Ceftin and Doxycycline for my Lyme. Well, about two weeks into this new medication I noticed that my "ulcer" pain and the irritation just disappeared. yes, just like that! I don't know which of the two prescriptions did it (I suspect Doxy).

Being the curious type, I began to test myself. I added garlic and onions. No problem. I added tomatoes and vinegar. No issues. I added vegetables. Some gassiness but that was it. So as of a few weeks ago I can eat much more than what i used to without it bothering me. I will say that I continue to be dairy, sugar and gluten free (pastas, breads, cookies) because I feel healthier without them. It has been so long since I had them that I don't miss them.

Well, my response turned into a book, sorry about that. I hope you find a way to feel better.

dear traveler.
how are you doing?
thanks for your answer

im on flaglel and magnesuim with vitamin b complex
also probiotcs with long name something long word then boulardii,
2 weeks in first month,of silly sheeps doctor whos helping me

il look for NOW PROBIOTCS as ebay sells these and amazon
are the ones drinks in supermarket any good the yogart drinks?

i forgot your meant to add this in..found email i printed with german doctor at lab treatment suggestions
if i could get a doctor to use his plan that is
dont no how when your to sick to work
he wanted me to use 3 antiobics and sod and 3 or 4 products from researched nutritionals
also intrevenous myres cocktail for coxsakie virus
and cowdens plan with takuna added in for virusus
WHO can afford all of this? nearly chocked when i looked at it all

hugs
elaine
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Dear Ioana,

Thank you for your answer.i hope you are right thanks for that
What treatments are you on?.
i only take flagyl and cowdens, i do have doxy i have not taken yet in the house. I was going to add this in 200mg daily i have 424 pills. Especially after another member told me this has helped her stomackShe managing to eat foods she could had to avoid before.Resolving stomack pain and dioreah.I also am on magnesuim with vitamin b complex added in
I was going to wait until the doctor talks to me at end of month 1 on her plan
As she was maybe at some point going to add in another antibiotcs
I no what you are saying.about taking it slowly.Thank you for your sympathy

the doctor only has me on the boullardi for 2 weeks out of a month.
should i look to find a different one for the other 2 week?

Sorry i dont understand about Foods.Are you saying we SHOULD EAT SUGARS OR NOT EAT THEM?
how does doing this help inflamation?
i only have 1 small latte every day.hubby brings me back a takaway one
dont drink nescafe or coffe in the house.Just tetley tea
and 3 to 4 litres of water,The cowdens plan states
I have not had Food tests carried out,I just avoid what gives me dioreah.However i dont no lot of the times what sets me off

I also am unable to cook.im danger in kitchen.Plus can not remember what i am doing
So i dont have a choice about whats for dinner
Depends if hubby can be bothered cooking or if not its a microwave meal
He has to do everything in house. and all food shopping .My severe muscle weakness in arms and legs also,i cant do anything
He has to help wash my hair and with my personal care.
So the diet thing iv got no choice in this
I am to disabled.
Oh i was concidering adding in buhners herbs for coxsakir virus.
However the company he suggest. Tell me they can not ship tinctures outside the Us
Can only send me loose herbs in bulk. Have to make own tinctures,or add these to tea Yuk
Can the herbs from buhners be from different supplier than who buhner recogmends ?
They sell these on ebay uk that ship to uk?
Wish you good luck in your healing also

hugs kind wishes
elaine
xx

Hi. iona
thanks for your answer .do you live in Us?
can not avoid gluten it is in microwave meals. plus i cant cook anylonger
hubby does the shopping and cooking. its to expensive for me to eat foods that are just for me.. foods bought have to cover all 3 in the house.cant put added pressure of this onto hubby either. We already bicker over money im spending on treatments.without have special diet.
Hubbys lost his buisness so we are on state uk gov income support. Hes classed as my carer by the goverment
i dont take sugar in tea or eat sweets .
time i need sugar is my period 5 days a month
gluten free foods taste horrible iv tried them before
plus they are expensive
im not going that far with the diet thing
il do all detox and water intake skin brushing foor epsin soaks but not follow gluten free diet or dairy or coffee.

elaine
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Hi finisului17.

oh why are you upset.angry with me?. i didnt mean to by anything iv said?
Thats good if you chose and you feel excluding gluten ect as it helps you. I dont want to do this
i just meant i can not cook anymore.A mug of tea is to heavy to lift to my mouth.my arms go limp weak numb. I get where i cant lift cutlery to my mouth, Lower my head at times to table level , i cant cook as can not stir the pots or have power to lift the pots One of my worst syptoms is severe muscle weakness in my arms legs as seen by neurologists and infectious diseases.
I cant wash my hair or dry it i need help in shower and with personal care
i also use a wheelchair indoors iv lost my mobility. Cant use a cooker in a wheelchair.
There also danger factor i dont no what im doing or remember what i was doing

i dont go shopping or pick foods hubby does all this.Im housebound except for 1 half hours a week .hubby takes me for a coffee bed. Im in bed more hours in day than up
can not sit in wheelchair for longperiods. need to lie flat out with legs supported they shake and hang in wheelchair
so if i out of bed im on sofa under a quilt shivering shaking chills

this was a gradual onset illness for me, it ionly got as bad as this 5 years after being infected
i had to stop cooking in 2010 year 4, my arms could do anything repeative,its got worse
all of it has progressed
im 48 and live like a 100 year old
my grandparents were mobile at this age and well fit my parents have no ilneses in late 70s go cycling long seaside walks lots holidays
it rally hit home how disabled i am
when i moved house and my dads nearly 80 and both of them offered to decorate
my dad was up ladder put wallpaper up
i sat watching in wheelchair
could even make then cup tea
cant lift mug thats full.
felt totally useless .
im not lazy, i hate doing nothing staring sat walls in bedin the house. gives me cabin fever
i hate not going out not working not going at night and day time to gym or aerobics and stepclasses doing art
cant go visit my parents they come to me 1 month
i sleep alone in bedroom hubby in livingroom on sofa, As iv got double bed to myself with bedrails
my legs go into spasms and pain alll night so they wriggle around
keep him awake.
i feel a burden to hubby/ i cant bear to look at myself. i dont rexcognise myself. i was slim until this started
ny parents hate that im fat and make lots comments
i cant eat ANY fruit which iv always aet or veg salasds long list. instant wind flatulance dioreah
it upsets me seeing fat blob in wheelchair
yes your right im willed to do with lymes i wont give in but im not tough or hard. Im quite sensitive. I get upset easy , Usually i am in tears after hubby taken me out As i get horrible meaN. Looks from public.they jump over me infront over me act like im imvisable . as a result of fighting the uk nhs with your back into the wall. haveing to feel defensive as disbelived for 4 years keep fighting them until last years 8.
until they accepted lymes was cause of my illness and disability
What do you mean congratulations for having a doctor sorry im confused? Are you in the Us ?
silly sheep gave me her private doctors contact details
as im in year 9 only starting geting help now and nhs door is firmly slamed in my face. if i didnt join this forum. id be wihout any treatment whatsoever
wil not treat private test results.refusal from 4 past nhs hospital concultants
i hope your not annoyed at me if you are please tell me the reason?


elaine

Dear Traveler,

tHANKS for your answer and help i apreciate your kindness and time
Yes if you have a name of probiotc,
my stomack feels hot My hands are cut red raw dried out .with constant hand washing
As i cant stop going to toilet all day and night With bowel movements semi dioreah and full also peeing
il have to take imoduim as i cant go to bed
its 00.32 am ,in uk now. fed up with toilets park my bed in there
in out in out wheelchair dayt night
cowdens has made this worse. Im getting upset,As it making my legs arms worse
not to mention only 1 toilet in house
iv contacted Occupstional therpy
coming next week To see if thetyl say yes to a extra toilet
he he callums going nutty over toilet roll im rattling throught

i can not eat veg at all instant wind flatulance dioreah. or salads fruit juices sauses for pasta/mayonaise curry sauce spicies long list. half time i dont no why it sets me off
iv either gor attacks of dioreah or spend all day doing rabit droppings
no sooner am in in wheelchair Just off the loo Then it back on before leavibg toilet
drives me crazy

i cant eat healthy until my stomack probs change all thats healthy sets iof flatulance wind both ways dioreah attaxcks

it upsets me as i miss fruit and veg salads ect
never had stomack problems until lymes

hope you dont mind my moaning
night night
xx

hi traveler.
thanks for your help.what do you mean more bit concerned?do you think i need another colonoscopy/
can you if you dont mind look at uk clinic selling products for all kinds of issues natrual products?
would be great .there lot for stomack issues possibly pick one for me? For wind both ways noice dioreah pain also dont empty when solid small rabbit dropping so on off all time/
Called finchleysclinic.com
this morning stomack really noisy and straght on loo with dioreah
also they do stool sample tests for protoxon parasites fungus ect.send a kit and shipping costmincluded to germnay.Would you mind looking at the parasite one It long list it covers. i cant afford to comine a few of the tests at once. to expensive for me.,do them seperatly
iv handed a stool sample into gp nhs, however i thing they just test few basic things.
my ilnness started in 2006 .i was in sandals jamaca in 2007 had see doctor got jag on but for dioreah.that started over there
then portugal 2008 another bad episode, this was last time abroad. . the cabin pressure affected my hesrt rthm.had to lie down with cabin crue
Also i struggled to move around on holiday legs kept giving way
2009 august bough a mobilityy scootor for outdoors. as i was down to 50 yards and was using taxis everywhere. could walk my son to scchool. droped him off in taxis
2010 using wheelvhair part of day indoors on off 2011 using it all time indoors. then on justb gets worse
cant stand on one spot now getting off loo colapse back into wheelchair
it would help my lot if i only went to loo once for bowels.this on off on off,makes my legs a strembling wreck in wheelchair
it is possible im carrying something from one of those holidays
however when i had a colonoscopy and endoscopy in feb 2009 i asked them to take a sample to test for diseases,they said there no sign of anything like that.they just did test of there own/ i tried to get repeat tests in 2012 however gastriologist said no
you see iv also stoped esomeprazole anti reflux acid script via nhs and all other gp scripts
hope you dont mind my asking you to have a look?
the german doctor gave me email address of who runs cowdens, i was told its not cowdens causing this imcrease in my direah bouts
he said it either a protiozon parasite or virus or bacteria
he suggested taking psyllium husk however i read on uk seller it states notbto take if you have irb?
the other thing iv reaD IS SLIPPERY ELM or nipple? What do you think of these 2?for stomack issues
there also a uk pharmacy runnung tests for celiac /screening for signs of bowel cancer/ also ulcers sct. only cost a £10 a test think il pick one for stomack, one here and there,
they send you kit its called pharmacy2u . have a peep tell me if you think these be helpfull?


elaine
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Scottish Lady, one more thing :you could do a stool test at a lab to check for parasites and candida, but it has to be a good lab. Because usually parasites, candida and viruses should be treated first, before lyme and coinfections. And you have to take a good probiotic all the time, even if you do a natural treatment, because the healthy bacteria în your gut are a big part of your immunity.

Hi Finisuli 17 .
How are you doing what treatments are you on?
Thats okay, thank you for your advice il do stool samples. Did you look up Finchleys clinic.com in uk?As you commented it was good lab.maybe youve looked at the parasites tests.Do you think the range offered is good?I have also over years since this lymes i was infected with lymes.I Do hand lot of stool samples in to my uk nhs gps,They send to lab for testingI dont no what nhs test for? maby just basic test range? Are you a hospital concultant.as iv read few of your posts,you mention your a gynecologist?This must be hard on you being unwell?and having to try to explain to your fellow medical doctors? Whol maybe not understand how this affects you and the difficulties in functioning. It causes multisystem disease.affect all your systems and neurology.
Hope you dont mind my asking.im curious ? Lot of lymes sufferers take very long time to get there illness recognised by doctors They get told its all in there head before lymes test are carried out Or are gave a ME/CFS diagnosis. Because you are a medical doctor im thinking maybe. They beleive you all the doctors you work or were working with?
They send me a kit and postage is included, ii post to germany?
I Dont no which lab in germany does the tests for Finchleys.

YOu say you treat parasites/fungus first. What do i do then if i run tests and shows positive
As i am already on Cowdens plan Also i take antibiotc Flagl ?

hubby got me psyllium husk for dioreah from uk holland barrett
also probiotc yogarts
im thinking of running a cealiac test also at pharmacy2you uk
a ulcer test
test for bowel for polypops.
the parasie fungies

but not all at same time cant afford it 1 a week probably
i had a colonocopy and endoscopy in 2009. i tried to get a repeat but im told no
Would candida go on your toungne?
i was bothered with this in winter 2009/ 2010 it was put down to all antiibotc for repeat chest infections that caused it thrush on my mouth
The same dryness on toungne and patchy looking effect is back
maybe its the antiobc iv started thats caused it?

elaine

xx
thanks

Dear Ioana.

I realy feel for you,my heart goes out to you im so sorry i no how you feel as i mum ,you are doing what i did beat myself up with guilt , Thank you for your kind words and understanding over the length of time i have had this. I think having my son kept me fighting on Hes like a guiding light in darkness.Hes always been affectionate and we are close.He made me laugh and still does. Hes 16 and is doing his highers until 18. When he comes home from school Hubby gets me out of bed And on to the sofa. Ilie under quilt. My son sits on end of sofa playing his guitar. Nice sofa muscic. It realaxes me and i feel myself starting to nod of to sleep. He also pulls funny expressions while doing this. and makes me laugh.. Wanting to see my son grow up and what he does with his life. Keeps me going. I motivate him verbualy and encourage him ,I am unable to do anything phyciacly to help. It annoys me i cant iron his cloths.Now hes 16 and hubby hates ironingmy son has to iron his own but hubby washes them .The only thing i do for my son also is As i dont sleep much and im in loo lot, I sit in his room at 655am 5 days week Saying andrew get up andrew get up For 30mintes, He has his diabetic rountine before school.he needs lot of time.I like doi g this.Feel iv got bit of imput . Then i go back to bed. Yes suppose i do have humour,i hate being bored. Dont like doing nothing. And you are pushing yourself To do things as a mum and wife and doctor .You need time off as if you keep pushing yourself. Your illness will progress i did this to point.I was crawling around the floor to get to my son. slipping of the bed. battling to iron 1 shirt pair trousers for him for school.On a towel on floor.
couldnt walk indoors anymore.I used a mobility scootor for outdoors.Had to get nhs to access me for wheelchair indoors.My life came to a traumatic event,We were all sick in 2009 with repeated chest infections.
spanning 5 months. Hubby had suspected tb. so he had to be quarinteened in sepesrate room, we wore masks
As my son is high risk hes type 1 diabetic, I was battling to do his insulin injections for him.
I had no family in area to help. Hubby was flat out doing nothing
I went in thick snow in winter on mobilty scootor.To supermarket for miscrowave meals. THis was when my arms were starting to progress to severe weakness.
The local shop would pack bags for me
i crawled of my mobilty scootor and in front door dragging bags behind me
As i could not go back forward to my sons room,
i moved him into mine. Had miscrowave in my room mini fridge ect
This was hell i was on different antibiotcs for 5 months.
My son had stomack bug march 2010 in space of during night, He wanted to go for a sleep.I let him did a sugar check, Gave him a correction doze of novarapid insulin.
Bext thing he woke up eyes rolling in his head unable to speak i called a ambulance
He was flown by helicopter by team of 8 .To childrens intemsive care.
He had developed Keytoneasidosis.
He nearly never made it.
When there is ilnneses in a family the women always is one to keep things ticking over
I am telling you this as its the winter you need to rest incase you catch flue or anything. You need to rest ,plus you are exposing your self to public..Pushing only makes you weaker
When you have little strength?.
I had lymes disease and did not no this. 3 western blotts for lymes were lost in my medical records
i had a ME diagnosis before the lymes was found By a neurologist who looked back 4 years of blood tests
She told me both gps lymes tests and infectious disease concultant,both gave me wrong results So it was left to develope

I no how hard it is for you being a mum and unwell. I felt realy guilty not being able to go swimming with my son or ice skating or doing social acticities as a family,I was more and more being in my bed.
It was gradual onset with a progrssing declining debiliity.
I would beat myself up sepecially in summer,I wanted to take him to the beach near by
However my mobility had drastically reduced by summer 2009, I couldnt get on to the beach
Plus the heat increased my weakness and brain exhaustion PLus i could not tolerate the light
i lived next to nice harbour and prominade with boats outside my bedroom window,
I would hear passers by going to beach having a nice time and laughing
I lay with curtains shut blocking out the light, Out my face with exhaustion
Hubby would take my son places And id be in my bed
At same time i was to sick to work I ran our small private lets we had on parttime basis
Hubby lost his main buisness. And all went down at same time
Our house was repossed in 2010
in way bad fate helped me As hubby is my carer now he does evertything
We waited 5 years for a council house. Living in private lets
I got rehoused in april 2015 a nice new build bungalow that wheelchair asseasable With wetfloor room and has disabled shower aids, It in quite culdisack

i still cant bear to even talk about that winter 2009 ending in my sons traumatic illness
I do not go near that area cant bear to see it.or that house
I am uspset this illness robed me of fun times with my son
im always apologising to my son For being unwell
he tells me to stop it As im always there to listen to him.
he doesnt care about things i couldnt do when he was younger
I am sure your son or daughter will fell the same
the important thing is you are still there for them ,Theyl no you love them
So please dont feel guilty and take time off work you need a rest to heal.

I think you should direct your hubby and dad to watch some, Videos on ILADS
or on internet
Dr joseph burcano. or dr horrowitz. dr garthy nicolson
they need to learn how sick you are, THey need to learn all about lymes and tick diseases
Then maybe they will be sypathetic toward you.
You need your husbands support and compassion You are unwell.

what kind of parasites is Flagl for? does this civer babasia or what exactly which tick coinfection? i thought this was for the lymes?im unsure what the doctors treating first.Think she said shed add more in Take it slowly though

can you tell me what germany lab were you thinking of for parasites testing?who was it armin labs?or infectolab?
did you look at Finchleys clinic.com in uk online?
are these tests enough?

i started the psyllium husk today in morning I dont really no how often to take it? should it be b efore meals?
.
can you prexcribe antibiocts for yourself?what are you taking for treaatments?

i hope you dont mind my saying your hubby needs to learn how lymes affects you?Im only tyying to help
As my hubby didnot help in house at all or really understand.until he went online and learned, He did no though and watch my declining strength and mobility,
we thought it was ME/CFS .
When he recovered from phemonia in 2010,it was not Tb as thought,He did take over in household tasks ect.

Just beacause you are sick does not make you not a good mum anymore you are What age is your daughter?
you could buy some lymes books ffrom de buhners leave them. conviently lying in places Your hubby relaxes at home? he he oh is that where iv left that book
take care

love elaine

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Hello Elaine,
we have psyllium in some kind of herb bulk called colon help, designed to flush out colon or enhance loosing weight.A friend of mine takes psyllium in water.But I think it is nicer in youghurt because it tastes better.You have to get it moist(I think that is the term).The fruity yoghurt is not good, it has sugar and many artificial components in it.Better use yoghurt and jam without sugar in it, if you have such.
I do not know about your detox product anything, I do not use products from the US yet.
Answering your question:yes, I can get antibiotics as far as I am an MD.The disease started really very fast in dec. 2013, I got diagnosed in february 2014 and underwent treatment for 9 months with Combo. Abx. and HBOT and was declared in remission, only left with some fasciculation and some sore, vibrating spots on my feet.I was very happy but unfortunately I relapsed(or wasn t completely healed in the first time) after two subsequent colds.(exactly what you told me about taking care of myself).
My daughter is 9 and quite wise, we drove around town tonight and talked about many things including the fact that I am sick and can't participate in many things and have fun.And I said I hope to get well in a few years.And she said she of course understands, so it was ok.
With my husband is a different thing : he seems to be afraid of what can happen, and I can not scare him more, he seems to be very hopeful that I get better.Really I want to leave it like that.Because my mother in law helps and we have a maid that comes in 3 times a week, so I am quite spoiled.Another thing is that my family is helping with my treatment -to-be in Germany.So i really don t want to bother them, I just rely on their financial support.For the emotional support I rely on my friends and a group in my country and for info and nice people here.

Elaine,I really hope treatment gets you better because you deserve it.(When you wrote about your son I wept,he is such a nice kid, you did well raising him even if not running around on the beach. My daughter is also playing the piano and I assist her with her homework and enjoy it very much).