After about
the past 10 months and THOUSANDS of wasted dollars with conventional medical care and testing it was their utter incompetence that led me to walking away from them 4 weeks ago once I got my blood test confirmation for lyme. Then was told not to worry about
it becase "we don't get Lyme" around here? Good God...
I am stronger than most anyone you find but a week or so after that day I literally began to unravel to the point suicide became the only road I could see myself on to end the physical & emotional pain and to get my wife to STOP wasting all this money on e and risk losing our home to keep me alive. The prescript
ion for Cymbalta (duloxetine) stopped THAT stupidity in it's tracks or I wouldn't even be here. And that is NOT who I am or ever was so it is yet another layer that the inhumane suffering Lyme lays on our tables. Having been abused by the VA for 45+ years I was used to it and had very thick skin. But after so many surgeries and having lost so much I was exhausted. Hell, still am and likely always will be (I'm OLD!)
But I never quit in my life so this is very scary waters I now navigate.
I will let my wife spend $200-$300 a month for a year or two if I even survive that long, for herbs and the like but no more. So I have to make every penny count and I am just far too damaged already BEFORE Lyme to be "worth" more of an investment. And my wife's own struggle with her Cancer left me with the determination that our home that SHE worked herself half to death to pay for while I was out surfing and wasting MY paychecks on 4 wheel drives, motorcycles and jet skis, would be there for HER. I have no title to that and will not let her borrow against it when I am so beat up now at age 68 come February and with all these major surgeries in 2014 that nearly killed me and did cripple me for life. If we can just make me somewhat "comfortable" and just mitigate this Lyme to the point it can be somewhat contained? THAT will be good enough for me. It's just when you see ALL your muscles waste away so fast (almost instantly in my case) I became terrified. I think we ALL are when we get up one day out of the blue and can't move, walk, go to work or even do the dishes or get the mail?
I hope my "economy approach" if you can call two or three hundred MAYBE four hundred a month for my herb & supplement care program works. Or at least has a CHANCE to help. If it doesn't, I feel I at least tried? If I was young I would chase the "cure" to the ends of this earth. This group is an AMAZING resource and it's participants nothing short of my Guardian Angels of sorts. It lends itself to the becoming an actual lifeline for some of us. Had I not found this place 4 weeks ago, I wouldn't even be here now. So, when I get "grumpy"? It's all YOUR fault!
In the meantime I will be taking my 3 main herbs from Stephen B., plus I also just added Full Spectrum Andrographis to those yesterday just to see if it helps or hurts but have NO idea what I am doing. But I AM trying...