They say the universe will answer too. I don't know about
that one though. It never did before. Dear universe, are you listening?
The last 10% (some days!) or 20% of this can be a b!tch too, I'm flippin burned out. There, I said it. Its there, I typed it out.
And I say this as some others feel as if they might NOT see another day. So you have a right to roll your eyes I guess.
Someone elses post on fatigue go me going on this. After 25-30 years of lyme, then some semi-successful treatment, I'm less fatigued now, but more "burnt out" now. In my mind, I should be superman again.
Health wise, I'm still trying to improve at the most basic level now- food, (paleo) and see where it leads to. I've read it helps autoimmune and the hidden issues it causes. I will see if it shows up as better lab inflamation and autoimmune and lyme marker tests if all goes well. Its getting harder to keep spending money on this while still inching forward.
I was born with a brain that always wants its body to be busy, it wants to do stuff. When lyme and thyroid were taking their tolls, "stuff" obviously piled up, it was hard to do anything. I kept my modest simple house in working order, obviously not up to some others standards though LOL
Prioritizing anything besides the basics of my job and eating/sleeping are easier said then done. When I am successful in getting out doing something fun like fatbiking I feel guilty for putting something else off that needs to be done. "Fun stuff", activities ect are like a temporary drug LOL. You get back and still have unfinished business.
All this "burnout" has made me a pro at vegging, sleeping in on weekends, and procrastination - that not who I want to be w*t*f.........!
You dont see this much here. I've met some in a lyme group, its like there brains are fried after all this and they feel the need to check out on eternal vacation to some semi-deserted island for their remaining years..
Oh, dear universe....... I want a brand new , updated thyroid too. One that works right and looks new on Ultra Sound, not some mushy beat up piece of Swiss cheese with holes shot through it from the antibody army. Throw in some re-built adrenals that can take some more stress abuse too. Some new joint cushioning, maybe lace up some new nerves would help. While your at it.... winning the lottery would be perfectly acceptable too.
I have heard of people selling out, packing up and moving across the country to start over. I see why this looks good at first, but from my point of view that's a lot of work for a homeowner who's has lived more than half their life already.
vent over. ha ha.......as I get up from my easy chair.........
Post Edited (astroman) : 2/11/2017 1:57:32 PM (GMT-7)