Welcome Woodduck12 and I am so sorry you suspect lyme disease.
I highly suggest that you read the first sticky thread entitled New to Lyme Start Here.
/www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=30&m=1606610 - there that might be easier.
This will take you some time to get through this, but there is one heck of a lot of information in this thread.
Finding a doctor knowledgeable in lyme disease and one that also takes insurance is a tough one. We can help you find a doctor, but you will have to call each one with regard to their taking your insurance. It has been my experience that most do not take insurance and they charge a hefty price.
There are alternatives to going to a LLMD. Bee venom therapy, rife, herbs, and so many other alternative treatments that you can basically do on your own.
However, it is not easy. If you have a foggy brain, it can be tough to do it alone with no one directing you.
But, it is doable! Hope the thread is helpful and welcome again.