Need advices and hope

Hello.
Some members know me now with all my complaining posts..
I have lyme and bart, very deep in my nervous system.
A naturopath diagnosed me with these two, very active, and a awful load of heavy metals ( bioresonance ).
I am taking minocycline since the beginning of december, and added zithro and dapsone in january. I even took some mepron but with no reaction, it seems that if I had babesia, it is under control or eradicated, the naturopath didn t find it, and I have no symptoms of bab.
I am struggling every single day woth trigeminal and occipital neuralgia, spasms in my back, radiculitis, neuralgia in my arm and leg all in the right side.
Each time I tried mino it was like that, but I handled it one week and stopped. Now I definitively want to kill these bugs. I take crypto ( in case of bab), sida, houttuynia, chinese skullcap and salvia milt.
Akn another thing that I can t handle is that I lost the love pf my partner and I have to move in a new place tomorrow, I am feeling that I will die alone akd without his love. I barely stand up, I even don t know how I could cook alone, and the depression is very intense. And the nerve pain makes me suicidal.
Is it normal to have ak oncrease of pain and nothing that can touch it, evek if I skip a few doses, detox etc...
So sorry for complaining, I am so lost and feel hopeless.

I tried two little doses of methylene blue and the reaction was intense.

In fact all my right side is tight and it pinches the.nerves that go out of the spi.al cord. Occipital and trigeminal neuralgia are nerve pain in all the half of my face and scalp. I can t even rest on a pillow. And nerve pain that go in my arm to my hand and the same in the leg to the foot.
I am in France, tried bvt, dsf, all kind of supportive supplements, and so sick since july 2016. I lost all kind of autonomy little by little for 3 years.
I actually have some.neurontin (3x600mg) but it does nothing. My doc gave me some celebrex...