UGH!!!! This stinking short temper!!!

Hey Everyone

Can anyone tell me if i'm alone or not? I have begun having such a short temper and no patience at all...but only at times when it seems i'm worsening in my symptoms. Tonight my legs began to be really weak and wobbly again and i started to feel what i say is muscle spasms in them. I also am having much more jerking in my legs and some dizziness. It's funny...i'm very patient most of the time. I have three very young girls and they're in that fussing stage...but still i'm usually just fine and can handle things very well. At these times tho i get so irritated with them. Just them asking me a question gets me irritated with them and makes me want to just scream for them to leave me alone. I haven't and won't do that, but it's on the tip of my tongue right now. Not just them...anyone, but they're with me all the time. My husband is in for it tonight and he won't deserve it. I will be keeping my distance from him for the sake of our happiness.     Anyone else ever feel this way?? No, i'm not blaming MS or whatever may be goin on with me, but it's really funny that i haven't ever been this way. Maybe just my age..but i've had all the hormones and such checked (during all my many tests i've had) and all that's supposed to be fine. Any and all input would be great! Thanks

rhonda

Rhonda,

WOW!! I had to check to make sure I hadn't started this post!! I too, have 3 kids and yes anything they ask I just want to scream and go back to bed. I don't, I bite my tongue and help them. To make matters worse, I stopped smoking a week ago. My husband came home yesterday and told me I needed to step outside and have a smoke. I guess I was getting depressed and grumpy. So, I will get on Wellbutrin before I try that again. I have also had a couple other stressers going on lately.

Good luck and remember school is only a month and a half away! Funny, I use to home school, now I am looking forward to the break.

Lysha

Hey Everyone

Geez....good to know i'm not the only one who does this! I know short tempers can come from many things and u don't have to be ill in any way for u to feel that way, but i think Michelle is right...feeling poorly can attribute to that greatly. As i said before...it's usually when i'm experiencing a worsening of my symptoms. Today things are better. My fingers are sorta tight and feel like they're pulling, yet no visible pulling. Same thing with my legs and arms, but not so bad i can't take it. Funny how u learn to live with things that once u freaked out over! I'm trying to follow others on this forum and TRYING to put my mind off this stuff. It does most certainly invade all u'r thoughts if u aren't careful, but if my efforts pay off i won't be focusing on this so much. (easier said than done, huh?) Thanks so much to everyone for u'r posts. It's so good to hear others with info on what u'r experiencing.

rhonda

Hey Lori!

I'm not sure if i'm right, but i'll say it anyway...WELCOME to the forum!!! I'm glad to see u here...if u'r new or not!! Thanks for the help too...i'm gonna try it on them tomorrow!! Yes, it's very hard to stay on top of things...to be considerate of others when u'r feeling rotten and add to that..no one can tell u'r sick or feeling badly. U look fine...u must be fine. My oldest daughter is 11 and she knows what ms is. She, ironically, had just studied that in her class the week before i began having probs and had an appreciation for what it really is. She is very much a rock for me. Always asking me how i'm feeling...and watching my eyes. She says i get this 'look' when things aren't right and she watches for that. I guess she means when i'm dizzy or something. When i notice something numb or some change in myself i stop what i'm doing and make a mental note of it...to try to remember to write it down. Maybe that's the look. My younger two are 8 and 7 and they are still very young minded and don't 'get' that mama isn't feeling good. They understand it and accept it...but don't get that when they come ask me how i feel 10 mins later it's still the same answer. hahaha They'll get it in time, tho i hope this all goes away one day and they don't have to get it. Thank u for posting. I will gladly try u'r method! It's very nice to have u here Lori and i hope we see much more of u.

rhonda

Hey Lori!

Well i'm very glad u found us and are reaching out! Information is the greatest thing u can have to help u'rself with all this. I don't have a dx of ms or anything else right now. I know something is goin on, but just don't know what for sure. My doc says he won't rule ms out, but can't dx it either. So here i sit. I'm thankful i found this forum. The people here are very helpful and caring and i think u'll see it's a great place to be. I was advised when i first started coming here to keep a journal. Tho i don't keep it up as i should, i do attempt to keep things written down in a fashion resembling the timeline they happened in. It has helped so far in at least one doc visit, so i can certainly see the value in it. If nothing else, i can see patterns in myself...worsening of symptoms with stress or exertion, etc. I guess it helps in knowing when and where the cues are that u'r body is giving u. I can tell u that i searched the internet for information before coming here. I suggest u read all u can and learn all u can, but honestly nothing has compared to first hand experience that the people here have to offer. I can understand the definition of spasticity, but to hear how it feels from someone who has it is a much better definition to me. U see? Anyway, i really hope we'll see much more of u in the future and that u'll get as much from this site as i and many other here have. Again, welcome!

rhonda

Im gonna just throw my lil bit in lol, no dx yet either but i do know its not normal for you to be sick for a yr and nothing wrong. My son is 13 currently living in a boys n girls home for depression and a few other issues. But before he was there I wouldnt feel well and say mom needs a nap. Now ya know teen boys, usually dont help with anything but going to block buster and getting a game hehe.  Alot of times when i woke up he would have straightend the living room, or took out the trash, one time he even swept (barely) and mopped my entire kitchen and dining room.  Well it was sweet but took over an hr to dry, i dont thing he rang out the mop lol.  But i knew id have to remop it later but i just said thank you hun i appreciate your help he just grinned ear to ear.  He now for the most part keeps his room fairly clean and his bathroom not too bad. Which takes some of the pressure off when you dont feel well.   A few yrs ago it was mom your always taking a nap, now its mom go take a nap lol or if I get dizzy or cant walk very well, he will help me to the couch and say "that spot in your head again huh mom"  the follow up with you need to find a dr to fix that.  ohhh now im just rambling on but kids the bounce back and as they get older they really do seem to, since we really dont feel well and it not that we just dont want to do something, thats when they start to understand and help.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Cyndi 

Hey Jena1225 & Cyndi

Thanks for the input! Yes, i think we all feel this way from time to time...just seems that i feel this way much more than i ever have now. Sure could be normal everyday life...hum drum of life can be enuf to deal with...but add to that this 'nervous condition' that we are all in some way or another dealing with and there u have it...a tantrum ready to happen! So far so good tho...i've held it together. I have a great family with a sweet husband who helps a lot, but there's always tomorrow..... ;)

Welcome to the forum Jena! Hope to see lots of u.

rhonda