I understand all too well how you're feeling. I have major fears that my surgery has left me with fertility problems. I'm terrified that my body won't be able to carry a healthy baby to term. It's hard because right now I should have two babies with me. My girls would be almost 5 months, had they been born at term. It's hard waking up to the reality everyday.
It seems as soon as I came home from the hospital, everyone and their mother was pregnant, trying to get pregnant, or just gave birth. Even now I'm surrounded by it. It's hard to be happy for those who easily have what we so desperately want.
All I can say is take it one day at a time. That's what I've done and it's gotten me 9 months so far. Long enough to have another kid by now! Your time is going to come, without a doubt. It's hard to be patient and optimistic, but both are key.
Is your next surgery going to be a reversal? I've decided if I'm a candidate I'm going to wait on the reversal and add on to our family first. I don't want my body invaded anymore than it already has been. I'd rather live with this bag for the rest of my life than go without children. It's a no brainer for me.
There's always a solution to every problem, issue, or worry. So sleep well knowing it's going to work out, one way or another.