debbie, i will pray for you!!! but have faith you will be fine, especially for your children. This may give you your life back to the way it should be. It has been some time since your last op, so you should be well enough for more surgery. the way id look at is god wouldnt have blessed you with all your children if you werent going to get to look after them. you are such a strong woman, considering what you have been through already you will do it. as you say in your profile, its just another step for you. a long and hard one granted but you can get through it. Im sure your full family will be praying and my guess is that their strentgh, optimism and hope could see you through anything. As you enter yet another op just think of how happy your family will be to see you once it is over with. Their smiles and love will guide you through im sure
praying for you and your family
with love and best wishes amanda( i look forward to seeing you post again when you are able)
xxx