becellea74--I am sorry to hear you are having a difficult time right now...Has your doc suggested an ostomy? I do have an ileostomy from my Crohn's Disease...I had small bowel, colon and rectum involvement with a rather nasty stricture in my rectum, not to mention many fistulas.
I am very happy with my outcome and do not have a problem with my ileo...BUT it is such a personal thing...you could go to UOAA.org and check out some of the information on there. There are links to the many manufacturers and there are some videos on taking care of a stoma.