Things are going kinda slow now.. random life things. -Adam

Well a little bit ago my aunt passed away from leukemia. I think my dad is holding up but its tough as it would be for anyone. My parents and sister went to st. louis to visit my grandma and my aunt, while she was alive. They spent a day there with her. They are still there but my mom and sister should get back Wednesday night they think.

I was allowed to go but i had to choose. do i want to risk something and see her one last time, or try and play it safe. I stayed home with my brother. were old enough and if something happens im able to drive as is he but nothing should happen. I felt that i couldnt make the trip "they drove there" i still can really control how long i can hold it, half the i end up crapping myself.. but nothing i can do at the moment.

Ive been doing the cooking and a bit of cleaning. dish's etc. I cant go to school so i do what work i get and once i do that i end up either sleeping, going for a walk, or play games for 8 plus hours. I get to sleep sometimes around 10pm ish not too late.

umm i try to eat atleast 3-5 small meals. i lost weight im 115 pounds and should normally be at 165 pounds..

I dont know lifes just REALLY slow and boring now.. I just fell super under the sheet now because i cant stop thinking about my aunts son. she was the only parent i believe who gets the kid? how will he adapt. He's right at that age where he understands whats going on but is still soft. it sucks.

nothing i can do though. Umm im getting my takedown surgery right before thanksgiving. yay... no turkey for me now. :( i dont know how the holidays are going to be now.

I've been wondering about my takedown. I've gotten so used to the ileo...

My pell check is coming in next month, so I can pay off my surgeon with that and maybe see if they will schedule for my takedown. If not I only owe them $500ish more which isn't bad.
Dunno how much vacation time I get seeing how I got hired on towards the end of the year, but I get 4 weeks payed vacation after new years :D (also full health, vision, dental, life, 401k, stocks, etc)

I also found out that I have Aspergers and possibly Bipolar but my GP wants me to go to my psychiatrist to get more testing done.