death

so my mom works withfoster care and around christas time her job had a christmas party and i met this 1 yr. old girl who had an ostomy bag. the special thing about her was she had a colontransplant (she was born with her intestine on the outside of her body) anyway she had about 15 surgery and was on about 15 pills. today when my mom came home from workshe told me to sit down but of course i diddnt i said who died (thinking it was someone in the church there's alot of elder's) then my sister said ohhh the girl w/ the bag i looked at my mom and she said yea she died today! i started crying and went to my room i thought how why she was only 1 so much life a head of her and then what made it hurt even more is that night i had a dream that i was in a forest walking and i saw a bunch of animal corpse like bears lions etc. it started to scare me so i looked down to the path i was walkin on and then i saw little foot prints that wereindicating death!!!! and i was becoming fearful that i would see my cat or something so small because it was small foot prints not big. and then i wake up to my mom 2 hours later telling me that she died. death ishard for me to deal with and my mom said to me dont let this discourage you and she was telling mei can still go through the last surgery but imjust so sad that this has happened but i have medatatedand found a small gift of peace in my mind. i ask you all to pray for me and her foster parents and biological parents as everyone copes with this thank you.

That's awful, so hard. Thinking of you all.

she had trouble breathing one night and when the ambulance were on the way she was kinda already gone but they kept trying for 2hours. she had lots of health problems 15 surgeriesfor a 1 yr. old a lot her body was probally worn out but even she had a reason and accomplished it hereon earth!!!!! i strongly belive her deathenabled me to move on and feel so type of peace when my mom thought it would throw me back some more.