Hi everyone, the doctor told me he thought I was constipated and the try to take maxicol, I did and it worked for that day, now I and back to where I was, I eat really well and the stoll is soft in the lower bowel, but for some reason it is very difficult to move, I think I might have some nerve damage where they damaged and tried to repair the large bowel as I don't really have any sensations until it is almost to late, I have repeated asked for help from my doctor and this is the only thing he has suggested, with the sort of tumors they think I have, they can develop anywhere and it is very scary, I am not confident with my doctor as he tends to wave his hand at me and fob me off, I believe he had put me in a the dieing category and doesn't really care every time I ask for a test or try to discuss the natural medicines I am taking he does this and this also scares me because so natural medicine stop chemo from working and I am not sure what they are, they only help I have is you, my pharmacist and the internet, my pharmacist just looks it up on line anyway, he is not an oncologist, but my doctor is and he wont listen he just laughs and throws his hand in the air like I am a naughty child, it is very frightening, it is easy to say change doctors but in this country you have to go to your GP to find out who these doctors are as she has no clue, they don't seem to even know what resources are available to them, I had to have a heart check last week as they said the chemo I am on can really damage your heart and no-one haas ever had more than 3 of these chemo's and I am on my 6th and they told me the earliest I could get in was 3 weeks, when I got home I
opened the phone book and found a heart centre across the road for the hospital my doctor works at and called and got in the next day, no one at launceston oncology was even aware there was a heart centre there, it is really not good enough is it? I had chemo yesterday and I am to have my cat scan this week and my doctor asked me to have a cat scan this week and didn't give me a request form for it, it is the second time I have had to call and remind him to do it, I feel like my life and care are in my hands and I am not qualified to make the right choices, I wont stop taking my natural medicines as I think they are the only things keeping me alive, I will have to find a way to find a good oncologist, maybe in another state, my doctor fobs me off even if I ask about
other treatments or tests, I haven't even had a biopsy of the so called tumors so they are just guessing and looking at blurred pictures from a cat scan, the chemo I am on has never worked to shrink anyone else's tumours, he just wanted me to have it to fill in a protocol so i could request a maintenance tablet which he says will keep me alive for 12 months max, but the chemo has shrunken and the tumours are getting hollower and still he will not look at the evidence in from of him and do a biopsy, I am in his little box and his little protocol and that is that as far as he is concerned, he does not want to waste resources on me, because he believes I am dieing, well he is wrong and I have to find a competent doctor before any more blunders or mistakes are made on me, that can't be reversed like the damage to my bowel, I have looked on line and put in everything I can think of but all I get it names and they could be just the same, does anyone know a forum in Australia I could go on that is about
oncologists, I need to find someone fast it is so frightening, biut I am coping well and will keep plodding on till I find someone who other paitients recommend as being on there side, he is not on my side, he is just concerned with his protocol and getting me on these tablets and closing the draw on me, I wont be put in a corner, if I can't find anything today I will call my local member of parliament for assistance and tall him my story of blunders and mistakes and with held treatments, if any one can think of anything to help me please write back to me, thank you for your support and help, there is no help page or forum I can find in Australia not even on the cancer council's page it is so wrong, the doctors have it all tied up in a neat bow and only they know how to untie it, well I will just have to be a quick study and learn or ask someone with some power to untie it for me, I am given no option, this is my life I have 2 small children and I wont be brushed aside and refused treatments and tests and that is all, I wish I had better bright news to share, perhaps when I find a doctor to give me a biopsy, I will, pray that is so please.