So my operation hasn't been as transformative as I had hoped

Hey NCOT, I know that's a sort of old thread, but I didn't know about your surgery (ok, some time away)! I'm happy for you (although you maybe not always happy for yourself, you did brought improvement to your health and to your fellow forum colleagues morale!).

If I may add my 2 cents, considering your personality...
1) just write! Create a ranting character (autobiographical?) and make politically incorrect jokes about life and use our social license to make fun of a cripling condition, if you holds it.
2) write chronicles about sickness routine. I do love reading intelligent texts, with sarcastic, cynic, acid, unforgiving bias. There are many authors of loving and caring texts - that's not you. Many times I need reading edifying stuff, it's easy to find and soothing - not you.

You are different. Depressive. So are many talented artists. To me, you are a gifted born writer.

Sorry for being so direct...

Daniel (had surgery 10 days ago)

Thank you, both of you. It's been about 2 months since I posted this thread and in that time a lot has changed. Pretty much not allowed to say anything here, but if I start a blog - which I have been thinking about - I can actually breathe there.

Watch this space :p

Hey NCOT you've been on a good roll for a while....it's just a rough patch. As negative as you can be at times, your wit is uplifting and typically offsets that negativity...if people on here didn't care about you, no one would respond to your maniacal posts (tongue in cheek)Grace us with some good stuff.... ; ) hugs

Ncot you really do have talent as a writer even though I told you off in my last post ( sorry ) I really do feel for you , Im not well educated but your writing talent is great so cleverly worded and very witty that's why I keep on reading your posts , please do something with your talent
Lucky lass