Jillibean here
Hello to all! I am faithfully reading all your posts, and feeling grateful for this forum. I am about
14 weeks out from my surgery, I guess. It was on Feb. 9th. Wow. My surgeon called my surgery a subtotal colectomy also, but removed the entire colon and attached the small intestine to the rectum. Sometimes my stool gets watery and coffee grounds like too, but then I take 2 - 3 Immodium and it gets back to soft. That's important because if I let it go watery for too long, I get a pretty sore rectum. I still use feminine wipes very often and vaseline occasionally. I am able to eat anything I want, but feel the best when I eat whole foods, healthy foods.
I am loving life without using Percocett every day like I did before the surgery for Fibromyalgia pain. I just don't need that kind of pain relief anymore, as the body aches I experience now, are so much more bearable. I wish I could say they were gone completely, but I still believe that someday I will be able to work my way off of social security disability, thanks to this miraculous surgery.
I have gone off of 5 medications since the surgery, and now only take a small dose of an antidepressant. Since going off of narcotics for pain for the first time in 8 years, I am probably feeling my feelings more clearly now, and am grieving actively, especially this week. I grieve all my losses in the past 3 years as I became disabled with the Fibro., and had to sell my beautiful hair salon and stop doing hair, which I loved to do. We had to sell our dream- house, boat, hot tub, pool table, etc.(just things, I know), and now we rent a townhome and live a different lifestyle.
I have to thank God for all of my losses, as I have grown tremendously in my faith, and I have much more time to spend with God and to serve Him, now. I call my townhome, "my recovery house", as I have become much more well here, emotionally, spiritually, and now since this surgery, physically.
My greatest loss has been the death of my sweet, brother, Dominic. It has only been five months since he went to Heaven, and I miss him with all of my heart. It has been rough going through surgery, my setbacks with the lung collapse and the bowel obstruction and ovarian cyst hemmorage, while grieving at the same time. Having you all here to share my journey with, has truly helped, and many of you have replied to me specifically, and I really appreciate your support.
I, too have my email available, and if anyone would like to communicate personally, I would surely welcome it. I pray you are all doing well tonight, and that you never feel alone in this journey. We are in this together.
Love,