Karen- Thank you so much for the welcome!
Everyone here has been so nice.
I don't know what the right answer will be for me. I think I have tried everything there is to try except this biofeedback that I am starting. After that, I don't know what's left to try. I am so deperate for the answer..I can't live like this anymore. Today has been an especially bad day. It hurts to move, to talk. I try to act like nothing is wrong, trying to be happy and cheerful to everyone around me, but inside I just feel like I'm falling apart. I feel like I have just lost all control...
Sorry to just vent my feelings, sometimes I don't know who to tell them to...I think it just feels good to get them out there.
Thanks to everyone for your stories and advice!