TOTAL COLECTOMY PART 22

Hey ladies, I know I've been gone a long time. I hope you will welcome me back! I posted a new topic to fill you in on what's going on now but then I saw this and thought maybe I better say something here so you'll know it's out there.

I hope everyone is doing ok, or at least better than me! I have a lot of reading to catch up on. I've been gone way too long....

Hodaya, I agree with Amanda May, you really need to just tell the psych guy exactly what she said. I know how miserable you have been it would be a huge relief to you to have the surgery and get this all behind you so you can start living again. You are much too young to be feeling like this. I'm thinking of you my dear and you are in my prayers!!

Yes, I live in Boise. WOW!! I've never found anyone else on here who lives so close. It's sort of exciting, yet I wish you didn't have to go through this. I had my surgery in Boise at St. Alphonsus in September 09, where I ended up living for close to four months....story for yet another time. I just wanted to wish you luck on your surgery tomorrow and if you need any info while you are recovering let me know and I'll try to help. Your recovery time will depend on you, how healthy you are going into surgery and how much you are able to get up and walk. WALK, WALK, WALK!!! That's the key. It will not be easy but you will HAVE to do it. It will make things so much better for you. Also, some people find it difficult to eat when they are finally able to, but please do all that you can to eat what you can because you need your strength to heal and also the nutrition. That was part of my problem, I couldn't or wouldn't eat and my nutrition was poor and the stiches I had didn't hold so the tissue tore. Take your vitamins and eat the best you can when you can, and drink lots of fluids!! I know there is so much more to tell you but I am stuck between going on and on and making sure you see my reply before you go in for surgery. I'm sure you will do great!! Good luck to you and you will be in my prayers.

Marisa how brave you sound. Good luck and keep us posted.

I'm in a lot of pain today and couldn't sleep last night. I figured I'd drop a line or two to the only people who truly understand. I'm partially blocked again, this time I'm not surprised especially after the doctor told me about the kink in my intestine. Also, I have to admit it's my own doing - I ate some fresh pineapple and it seems to be what's causing this. My husband even warned me before I ate it, but did I listen? NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, of course not!! Not even after I found out about the problem in my intestine and inevitable surgery. I've been so scared of these problems again but do you think I can refrain from eating whatever I want? Again, a big fat NO. You would think I'd be extremely cautious and restrict heavily what I eat to only the safe foods. Why don't I do that? I seem to have lost my discipline in this area. I have only gained MAYBE 5 lbs. back since my last surgery, so my eating isn't out of control, just WHAT I'm eating. Does that make sense? In the last few days I've had calamari, shrimp, fresh pineapple, and tonight I ate corn and watermelon with dinner. Those are the exact things (minus the pineapple) that the doctor specifically told me (after my last surgery) to stay away from. UGH! I'm so disgusted with myself. I don't want another surgery and I hate the blockages but yet I keep doing this to myself. I just don't get it! Anyway, I just had to vent for a while. Thanks for letting me; I don't know where else I can do that.

Tuesday is my doctor's appointment to discuss surgery again. I hope I don't have to have any emergency surgery in the meantime. That scares me to death, but obviously not enough to forgo the danger foods..... I'm so disgusted with myself!!