Posted 7/25/2010 4:58 AM (GMT 0)
hi everyone,I think I've posted here before,I'm renee. I'm just so sad right now,I really just wanted to vent a little. I've gone to the doctor so much in my life,and been sick for years,and they can't figure out what's going on. my dad can't afford to send me to the doctor anymore because his business is slow,and they never help me anyway. I can't eat anything. I'm down to 107 pounds,and I'm really scared I'm going to keep losing. I have to eat such small meals otherwise my system just completely shuts down.(I think I might have what you guys are describing??colonic inertia?) but I can't afford to go have it checked out. I'm soooo angry that my doctor didn't mention this to me-and I just caved and ate a whole bagel,so I'm sure I'll be completely plugged up tomorrow.:( I'm just so sad and scared.:( :( why did this have to happen to all of us? It's not like I can just stop eating,so I don't know what to do. I get so scared that my system will shut down completely,and I'll just have to starve to death. Idk if they let things like that happen,it may be completely irrational...but it's one of my biggest fears. they certaintly have no problem watching me suffer now,would it really be such a stretch to let me just starve,or pop? I feel like i have to choose how I'm going to die,by starvation,or something rupturing.:( I'm so so scared. does anyone have any imput?? we can't die from this,can we??I already take miralax daily,1 does so far,but I'm just waiting for it to stop working.:(