I agree w/ everything you say, and while I'm sad I won't fall in love with total abandon, I would really like a mature and trusting love. Being intentional about
what you create together sounds ideal.
I am not meeting anyone at the moment and havn't been even noticing anyone that I like. Who isn't married, that is. Do you have any idea what emotional wrecks divorced men mostly are (as horrible, bitter, and non-PC as it sounds), it's like their entire mechanisms for trust, bonding, having fun, being
open and having an emotional life at all are completely destroyed. I ended my partner-search website rigmarole once and for all, I only want to meet someone the old-fashioned way, in person, imagine that.
I know I have probably not been radiating the most attractive signals in the world bu tthings have been quite rough and merciless. I hope this changes and I change the feeling that my physical self is ill, cut, mangled and only deserving of medical attention at this time. But I must be getting old, because men are not turning their heads to look at me anymore.... (sniff, whine, whimper etc.....). On the one hand, I know from experience that life will probably surprise me with something, but on the other hand, I feel like I should know better....
(oh no the mascara is running down the faces....