Everything is going to be okay! You are in really good hands, God's hands. I know how scary it is to have surgery, but the truth is, they give you medicine to fall asleep, you wake up, and it's over. Then, they give you really good pain medicine after surgery, so you don't feel much pain, and you heal one day at a time. Before you know it, you're back to work and living life to the full again!
Being UC free is all you need to focus on right now. I know it's hard to imagine a cure, but there is one, and it's surgery. You will never have to go to the bathroom 20+ times a day again. You will not be sick anymore. You will have energy and will be able to live a very healthy life again. You'll be able to eat anything you want and not be in pain anymore. You have so many wonderful days/weeks/years ahead of you!
Please keep us posted on how things are going. We're here for you every step of the way. You are in my thoughts and prayers. (((hugs)))
Cecilia