At noon tomorrow I'm having my Proctocolectomy with a permanent end ilesotomy. What a rough road this has been for 6 years. Many of my friends and relatives have called, emailed or texted to wish me luck and send their thoughts a prayers. Hard to wrap my head around that this is really happening. Though I have no doubts about
my decision to have this procedure, I'm twisted up with anxiety.
And it doesn't help that I began a pretty serious bout of cramps and diarreha late last night the kept me in and out of the bathroom until 5:00 this morning. And I haven't even started my colon cleanse yet ! Oh my, its going to be a rough day. Maybe it's my body saying "If you are having doubts.....hopefully you're convinced now."
I also had my placement appointment with the WOC nurse yesterday and am very happy with the stoma placement. Of course I know that things could change during surgery, but if it goes well, I'll be happy to have the location she chose.
So I've got all my liquids handy for today.....popcicles, jello, tea, water. Books to read and TV to watch. I'm positioned in my favorite chair with a pillow and blanket and the bathroom is 7 steps way for those mad dashes. With all my heart and soul, I hate these colon preps......I get so sick from them. But it's the last one I'll ever have to do. Good-bye Colon and Rectum......I'll miss the good times. 54 years of dependable pooping, but crap happens and it's time for you to go. I need to get my life back.