Posted 10/9/2015 6:49 PM (GMT 0)
Hi.
I have a colostomy (1/27/15) and the surgeon left part of the anus and rectum. I'm actually a bit confused about what's left there, but I'm unsure about what to do.
It is a major surgery. I understand. I am just wondering if going thru the pain and the recovery are worth it. For those of you who have gone thru it, once you get beyond the horrors of recovery, how is life? Are there any further problems or limitations ? I know everyone's recovery is different, but what were your recoveries like? Is there a "typical" recovery?
So, the reason Im thinking about surgery is that due to the opening in my bottom and the tissue that's left, I have a LOT of discharge/mucus sitting on my skin all day. I've tried cotton underwear, pads, and cream covered by "butterflies" cotton pads ( to absorb moisture).
The problem is I have skin breakdown all over the area near the opening and around the vaginal area. The wounds are not horrible, but they are large and I have a lot of burning all day, every day. I currently use Calmoseptine on those areas with butterflies (mentioned above). The wounds aren't getting worse but not getting better either.
My ostomy nurse advised me on which products to use, etc. I then talked with my surgeon's assistant at my appointment yesterday, and she confirmed I was using the right thing, Calmoseptine, and to continue using cotton to absorb the moisture. She said we'll see how things go, but that the surgery was "out there".
I know the following might seem like a petty reason for such a tough surgery, but I have worn pads, depends, etc, my entire life due to bladder and bowel problems. I was told I'd likely have to wear pads for the rest of my life due to the mucus/discharge. Mentally, I just cannot accept that. I thought these latest surgeries would free me of the worries of pads and leakage, etc.
It may not seem like a big deal to a lot of you, and yes, I am VERY grateful that the surgeries helped so much, but every time I put on a new pad, it brings back a lifetime of memories of accidents, fear, limiting myself and the clothes I wore. The bowel and bladder problems have been extremely traumatizing for me, causing severe issues with self-image, confidence, depression, problems developing social skills, and basically preventing me from engaging in anything other than constant worry about the bathroom.
I'm sorry this got so long. I rarely tell anyone about my issues in childhood, but this felt like the right place and a safe place to share. Thanks for listening. I appreciate any feedback you have for me.
Sunny.