Having a low self esteem day.

sfgiants,

A Little Whine with your Cheese!!  You bet - I think we all have those days or we wouldn't be human!  Just being able to vent those emotions is what we are here for. 

So are you saying that your weeping sore is not any better at all?  When do you talk to the ET again?

I hope you have a good time this evening even tho your morning has sucked!!  GO, laugh, enjoy yourself!!!  And then be sure to tell us all about it.  I'll be thinking of you.

 

Can someone please pass the cheese and whine my way???  I have been having many pitty parties lately for myself - they have all been internal parties but I am sure my family can tell that I am not in the best mood. 

I can completely relate to your situation.  ALL of my pants are tight in my tummy and they use to be loose.  My clothes feel like a confined straight-jacket.  My hubby say, "oh, just go buy larger sized pants."  Uh, NO THANK YOU!  I do not want to be a larger size!  All of my clothes fit great 3 months ago!  I try many different outfits on daily!  These are too tight, those are too low and rub my stinky stoma, others show the bag. I feel like Goldilocks...except, nothing is "just right." 

I normally do not complain, but you caught me at the right time!  I am having a bad day too.  To top it off, I keep gaining weight!  Not food weight, I am holding water!  My face and fingers are puffy. At first, I thought I was dehydrated from the bag, so I drank more water.  But, then I gained 3 pounds in one day in addition to the 5 I gained from the surgery.  So, I thought, maybe I am drinking too much.  I cut back on the water, and still gained.  So, now I do not know what to think.  What I do know is that if I bike 20 miles, I lose 3-4 pounds everyday.  So, I bike everyday just to keep myself from gaining water!  This is crazy! 

Ok, there is my whine...followed by a rant. Thanks for letting me complain.  Now, I that I have that out of my system, I feel much better. 

 

sfgiants,

So how was your night out with your friends? Tell all......

Thanks Peggy and Cecilia,

Peggy I am way ahead of you...I called my surgeon last week and he wants me to come back in and see him. WHAAA! Then he said, "No, Amey go see the GI specialist first and see if he knows of any tricks and then come back and see me." However, I do not want to see anybody. I want to be cured.

I am going to make an appt to see an kidney specialist. I have had a problem urinating since my first TC 8 years ago. I always assumed the problem was related to all of the laxatives I took because of my chronic constipation. However, even while I was in the hosptial for 15 days and only able to eat jello and drink my IV through my vains, I gained 15 pounds. I told the Dr I was not peeing and they gave me a mild water pill to help me pee. So, now I am at home and I still have to take that water pill daily so I can pee. My blood work showed that my kidneys were functioning properly in the hosptial but for some reason they are not converting the fluid I drink into pee so I have to workout to sweat out the water. I have not make an appt with a kidney specialist yet. I was kinda waiting to see if my body would balance out on its own...but I guess I have to get back to the Dr.

As far as being deficient, I hope I am not! I have been thinking the same thing. I have taken some magnesium and potassium over the past several days just to give myself a boost and then when I finally get off my butt and get in to see a Dr, I will have them run some labs.

Honestly, I am doing fine. This post just caught me at a time when I was frustrated and so I decided to rant. I am still better than I was 3 months ago. Thank you so much for your concern. It is truly touching to my heart!

I have those days too, just today I was looking at people thinking "they don't know how lucky they are that they can wear regular jeans" I can't wear any of my jeans and the ones I try on all sit too low and the top of my bag hangs out! I have been wearing sweats everywhere I go and feel "frumpy" and unattractive. Just last week I had told a co-worker (who is a nurse by the way) about my surgery and all she could say to me was "EWWW YUCK"
so I have been struggling with feeling gross on top of it all!

I have had Kenalog injections into areas of psoriasi that was under the wafer. And, you are corret, VG, it clared it up right away! They even make a topical Kenalog spray - looks like WD40 when you spray it. Strong but quick working for sure. I had forgotten all about that drug til you mentioned it.

tbraz, i wear normal jeans all the time, you coudl do like cece said, or you can wear a shirt that's a little longer, except for the one time which it popped out of the top, which was stupidity on my part, it has never shown, watch me jinx myself there! but i wear low rise jeans, and some regular waisted jeans, the same ones i wore before. it hasn't been that long since your surgery right, it says august in your sig, so you might need some more time for your body to get back to normal.
sfgiantsjo i am glad you had a good time too!

I guess if the jeans are too low and too snug, it's causing the bag to balloon at the top. The waist of the jeans are pressing on the stoma and the top of the bag sits about 1-1 1/2" above the top of the jeans. It's ridiculous for me to say that jeans are too snug for me because I have lost so much weight, I can't fit into my normal size 5 jeans yet! I've even tried taping the top of the bag to my skin to keep it snug against my skin, but it still feels so uncomfortable. I hope that you're right and I just need more time. It's funny because I have been wearing tank tops under shirts to help control the top of the bag. If I had the chance to do it all over again, I would have fought with the ET nurse and made her put the stoma a little lower on my stomach!

Thanks for your reply Richard. I have Potassium supplements and Magnesium as well. I have not scheduled an appt with a nepherologist. I have been hesitating to make an appt. I feel like every time I go to the Drs I always come out more confused than when I went in. Drs are like car mechanics! Every time you go see one, you always find that something else needs repairing and it's ganna cost you a mint to fix it! I thought my body would balance out after my surgery since I am still in recovery. But I think it is time that I make the needed appt to see the nepherology specialist. Boo Hoo!

Thank for your input. It is nice to know that I am not alone.