Newbie mistake...set kitchen on fire today!

Hello,

Newbie here. 56 y/o. PD since 8/28/08. I have been forgetting.

BIG TIME! Today the phone rang as I was just starting to

fry shrimp. I walked away from the cast iron (thank goodness)

frying pan half full of peanut oil on a high fire. It was such a newb move. But, I forgot I was forgetting. I feel like an accident waiting to happen. Is this memory problem issue ever going to get better?

I am on Mirapex 1.5 mg po TID  0900,1500,2100

Also Sinemet 25/100 po TID, Propranolol 40 mg po TID

Clonazepam 0.5 mg po BID  

Sertraline 100 mg po HS, Ditropan XL 1 tab po HS

Even with what seems like a lot of medication to me,

I have very poor control of the tremor in my right arm.

There are short moments of quiet, but that is all.

I am right handed. We are still looking for the right medication for me. DBS has been mentioned as a possibility already. Kind of soon don't you think? Am I missing something that the neuro doc is not telling me? I went on med leave 11/4/08 - 5/4/09. I was exhausted, beginning to go crazy, loosing my car in every

parking lot I went to. Peeing like a pregnant woman. And then,

falling asleep at my post. I developed a fear of driving because of slowed reflexes and vision changes. The first thing I gave up was my Ninja. My one true relaxation...gone. I am seeing the

shrinks, group therapy, etc. I had a great job which I loved. It was so specialized...it was a lock. Depression proof. But very hard long hours. It took dedication, it was a life style. Now I do not want to go back to work. I am not strong enough and I do not want to be responsible for the lives of others. This forgetting is annoying ( impacting my ability to provide for my family annoying). It could be caused by my medication, the Parkinson's, or the depression. I don't think the depression will go away until I know more about my future. 

My list goes on. This fatigue overcomes me. My eyes feel very heavy. The left eye almost closes and does twitch. I look impaired. It is embarrassing has been the cause of me changing my plans about socializing.

I have been lurking not posting. Learning a lot.  Thank you .

Sorry about the long post.

gypzchild

newbie girl

Thank you for responding Prairie Dog Houdini,

I am that forgetful. I can completely go blank in mid sentence. I don't have any clue what I was just talking about. Also I loose words, almost like expressive aphasia. My husband and friends are finishing my sentences.  It's frustrating. I am one of those folks that have an opposite reaction to many meds. what makes others sleepy, can make me feel like I am flying around the room. My skin crawls. If it stimulates the CNS, it makes me sleepy. I am on max dose Mirapex. Having fluid retention probs too. My face is beginning to look like someone on prednisone. Moonpie face. Could not take Reqip, too much gastric upset and bladder spasms. I think it is going to take a while to get it right for me. My Neuro MD is young and very nice. I like him. He does seek advise from the Neuro movement disorder neuro specialist . I saw her for a second opinion 1 month after initial dx. She is across the bay and I don't go over there because of the driving distance. My MD's, neuro, internal med, and psy have been very supportive. I am also lucky to have a very good support system of family and friends. After the initial shock and delarations of "I don't want to do this", my people went on suicide watch for 4 months until they figured out I was not going to "do IT". I was very sad. I am getting better. The fight is returning. And I have a good safety net around me if I stumble. I am lucky. I just need to be patient and flexable.

Gypzchild

Hello Sherwood! Yes it really does help to share info with people (not family or friends) You get straight answers. My people are starting to try to overprotect me. I worked with,.. I like to say I worked with adults. Serious and supportive, no games. We only saw each other one time a month. The rest of the time we were out working independent in the field. Our only contact was by cell phone. And we do consult each other with the odd problem. Occasionally the assignment was a research project back at the office. We developed a strong bond. In my life time I have worked with a group this honest and dedicated one time. I can still stay in touch with them. I will miss the cutting edge science. But now I have my eye on something lower tech. It is important to keep going. I feel better about myself if I accomplish something/anything,
The something/anything is going to be cleaning up this mess I made. Spring cleaning is starting early at my house this year.