HELLO TO ALL VIETNAM VETS. I AM THE DAUGHTER OF A VIETNAM VET WHO SERVED IN THE ARMY FRONT LINES DURING 67-68. MY FATHER SUFFERED FROM PTSD, HEART ISSUES, PARKINSONS, AND CHRONIC PAIN ALL WHICH I FEEL IS DUE TO THE AGENT ORANGE THAT WAS SPRAYED DURING THAT TIME. HE FOUGHT FOR HIS COUNTRY AND HIS LIFE IN VIETNAM, LITTLE DID HE KNOW HE WAS GOING TO HAVE ANOTHER FIGHT ON HIS HAND AGAINST HIS OWN GOV. TO TRY AND RECEIVE BENEFITS FOR THE AGENT ORANGE THAT WAS ENGULFING HIS BODY FOR YEARS. I TRULY FEEL HE FELT THAT OUR GOV HAD TURNED THERE BACK ON HIM AND EVEN THOUGH THAT BEING SAID HE WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALL OVER AGAIN FOR THE LOVE OF HIS COUNTRY.
I WISH MY FATHER WOULD HAVE LIVED LONG ENOUGH TO HAVE SEEN THIS NEW PRESUMPTIVE DISEASE OF PARKINSONS, HEART, ETC: BUT HE PASSED AWAY IN MAY OF 95. MY FATHER WAS SO WONDERFUL. HE WAS JUST A GOOD OL COUNTRY BOY WHO LOVED BASEBALL AND FISHING AND THE COUNTRY AIR. ALL OF THIS WAS TAKEN FROM HIM WHEN HE WENT TO VIETNAM. HE WENT IN SO YOUNG AND INNOCENT AND CAME OUT ASHAMED AND DAMAGED MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY. HE TRIED TO WIPE AWAY THOSE FLASHBACKS OF WOMAN AND CHILDREN BEING KILLED BUT THEY SURROUNDED HIS BED AT NIGHT IN HIS NIGHTMARES LAUGHING AT HIM. I CAN STILL REMEMBER HIM AS A YOUNG CHILD YELLING OUT AT NIGHT, OR SEEING HIM ON HIS HANDS AND KNEES TO TRY AND DODGE THE BULLETS HE THOUGHT WERE COMING AT HIM. WE JUST TRIED TO LOVE HIM AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, BUT WE JUST DIDN'T REALIZE THE DEMONS THAT LIVED INSIDE HIM. I REMEMBER READING A WHILE BACK A PAPER FROM HIS PSYCHIATRIST AND HE STATED THAT MY FATHER HAD SAID, "I DON'T WANT TO LIVE TO BE OLD, AND IF IT WEREN'T FOR MY FAMILY, I WOULDN'T HAVE LIVED AS LONG AS I HAVE".
FOR ALL THOSE FAMILIES THAT ARE LIVING WITH SOMEONE LIKE MY FATHER, I FEEL YOUR PAIN. THIS WAR THAT HAS BEEN LONG OVER FOR US IS STILL VERY MUCH LIVING IN THEM, MUCH LIKE OUR YOUNG MILITARY SOLDIERS NOW. IT ABSOLUTELY KILLS ME INSIDE, BECAUSE I FEEL I WAS CHEATED FROM MY FATHER AND HIM BEING ABLE TO WALK ME DOWN THE ISLE, AND SEE HIS FIRST BORN GRANDSON. I JUST HATE HIS LIFE ON THIS EARTH WAS FILLED WITH SO MUCH GUILT AND REGRET AND PAIN THAT COULD NOT BE OVERCOME NO MATTER HOW MUCH LOVE AND SUPPORT WE GAVE HIM.
AND FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT WE ARE JUST TRYING TO BRING UP ANY DISEASE KNOWN TO MAN FOR THE AGENT ORANGE ISSUE, HOW about YOU GO AND STAND OUT IN A FIELD AND LET US SPRAY YOU DOWN WITH SOME HERBICDES, AND THE ONLY WATER YOU WILL GET WILL BE SOME CONTAMINATED WATER WITH SOME AO IN IT. AND FOR THOSE THAT MAKE COMMENTS LIKE VIETNAM VETS ARE A BUNCH OF CRYBABIES I'D LIKE TO TAKE THEM OUT IN A FIELD AND SHOOT ROUNDS BY HIM EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY FOR YEARS ON END.
FOR ALL THOSE VETS OUT THERE NOW I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU, THANK YOU FOR RISKING YOUR LIFE EVERY DAY FOR YEARS FOR US.
FOR THE FAMILIES OF THOSE VETS I TOO FEEL YOUR PAIN, BUT JUST LOVE THEM AND KEEP SUPPORTING THEM, AND WHEN THEY CRY OUT OR FEEL ANGER JUST BE THERE WITH ARMS WIDE open!!
AND TO THE WONDERFUL VETS LIKE "OLDVET" THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIRELESS EFFORTS TO MAKE SURE ALL VETS AND THEIR FAMILIES HAVE THE INFO THEY NEED TO GET THE BENEFITS THEY DESERVE FOR RISKING THEIR LIVES. I KNOW MY FATHER IS SMILING DOWN FROM HEAVEN TO YOU!
THANK YOU ALL FOR READING, AND GOD BLESS OUR VETS!!!!!!
DAUGHTEROFAVET