Posted 1/19/2015 1:37 AM (GMT 0)
Honestly, I still awaken every single day hoping that the nightmare that my dad and our family are experiencing with PD will come to an end. I wish I would wake up from this nightmare. Parkinson's came like a thief in the night and took the dad that I once knew. It was insidious to say the least.
It started seven months ago. My dad started having shortness of breath, anxiety, severe insomnia, depression, quit smiling and laughing, facial expressions are completely gone, balance problems(he would lose his balance and fall forward like he was running), dizziness, orthostatic hypotension, hoarseness, constipation, stiffness and rigidity in his muscles (especially around his neck and shoulders), delusions, fear, feeling of impending doom,suicide attempt, staring off into space and never talks unless we talk to him.
His PCP missed these symptoms and after three ER visits and two hospitaliztions, he still didn't agree but finally a neurologist confirmed his diagnosis his last hospitalization. That was October. We couldn't get a neurologist appointment until February.
Last week, my dad's delusions got so bad that I had him admitted to a psychiatric hospital(after camping out in the ER for over 20 hours) to try and get his meds under control. He's not safe at home and my mom who is 76 has Alzheimer's. She still knows us but she stays confused and disoriented most of the time. She can't comprehend what's going on with him.
After nine days in the hospital, he came home just as confused and delusional as when he went in. I'm just numb how fast all of this happened. My dad has been forgetting more and more since the delusions got bad. It's hard losing both your parents at the same time and to such horrible diseases. My prayers go out to all of you and I could relate to most of the post on here. I have lived it and hate for anyone to endure this hell.