Hi all,
Ed's last post should be standard reading for all of us who get PD. It's because we are all so different that the neuro's have no standard way of treating us; therefore, they can only be guided by what we, the patients, tell them. If we are regularly going to them saying we are unwell they can only respond with even more, or different meds. We are, in fact, guinea pigs. Their alternative is to tell us to go away untreated and they are obviously unhappy to take this attitude.
Today I felt very tired due to having a poor night and my legs feel sluggish and unresponsive. I can get no enthusiasm for anything at all and my speech to my wife is in monotone and difficult for her to understand. In fact, I feel thoroughly miserable with life. But tomorrow I might feel better. If I am, even slightly, I will feel that I have beaten the ruddy disease for yet another day. If I still feel bad then I will say a little prayer that I will feel better tommorow. What I wont do is to go to the doc and ask for more meds. I will save that for when I am certain that I need them.
Its a hard old life, especially for people like Anne who has multiple problems. I have had two lots of cancer, thyroid problems, oesophagus troubles, arthritis and have chronic renal failure that will soon lead to dialysis 4 times a week, so I expect to feel ill. Thats the cards I have been dealt and I don't like them very much. But there people worse off than me and I feel lucky to be alive. My way is to look forward to the good days...and they do come...and if my little 5 year old grandson is over at my house with me and I am having a good day then my prayers have been answered without taking even more meds.
As Ed and the Bear, Stella Marie and lizzy says, listen to your neuro and find out as much as you can from other people, but remember that medications like the ones we take, have their own consequences so be aware, but not frightened.
Hope this doesn't come across as a lecture...all I am trying to say is try to look at the bright side...and have hope.
God Bless
BILLY