Thanks so much everyone for your quick replies. Myman, thank you and i will look into the website about
counselling you sent me. Bluebird, thanks so much for your words of encouragement and help. Gordy, you are my hero. Don't know what it is about
you, but i gain such strength and hope from you. (hope i didn't make you blush, ha, ha) Again, without you guys i know i couldn't deal with this. You have no idea how much your continued words of support, encouragement, hope and wisdom mean to me. I can feel your arms around me holding me up when i am near the bottom. I am so truly blessed to have found friends like you. My sister offered to stay overnight anytime i would like to spend the night at one of my daughters homes so i can just enjoy the kids and try to relax. Now the hard part is not feeling guilty if i do this. I don't want him to think that i need to get away from him, and i know him, this is what he'll think. It seems that when i go into town with my daughters or sister the odd time to shop, he is always on my mind and i really don't relax and enjoy myself because i am worried about
him or i feel guilty leaving home alone. (i only do this when i know he is doing well) We live in the country and i know he gets restless being home so much. He is still so limited without the use of his hands. He so misses puttering around in the garage like he used to. I sure wish the drs. had been right and the radiation had worked. While there is some strength in his left hand it's still hard to function and there is still no improvement in his right hand. Don't know if anything else can be done. When i asked about
surgery, rad. dr. said no. Anyway, thanks everyone and you are always in my prayers. Hugs reaching out to you all from your friend Lifeline