dmlvt said...
I was 51 at diagnosis, 52 at surgery, and 53 now. My pathology and PSA were nearly identical to yours. I don't know what I'd choose if I had a do-over, but I absolutely hate the side effects from the surgery. Yes, the cancer appears to be gone and I was able to resume testosterone therapy, which was important to me. But, I feel like I've been permanently maimed. My ED is mostly resolved, but not completely. I never know for sure when a real erection will show up. My orgasms are a shadow of what they were, although others report better results there.
I know it's probably not cool to lament the quality of my sex life when others here have it much worse. But, I feel like a huge part of my life has been permanently stolen from me. I still have a sex life, but it's nothing like it was before and I feel robbed.
It seems to me that there are many solutions that can cure the cancer. The question is, does the cancer need to be cured? And if so, are you willing to live with the side effects of the cure?
I think that if I was starting over on the decision path now, my choice would be so much more difficult.
You are singing my song, DMLVT. My feeling since the surgery- exacerbated greatly when I did not get the hoped for containment and
cure- is that I made a terrible error and am stuck with the consequences of that for life. And, yes, maimed is the feeling. However, unlike you I have no sex life. The results of the injections have just never been adequate- though I sure get the aches and close but no cigar result. But even with the inadequate response, I have managed to pull it off(just barely) with penetration a couple of times in the last 13 months, and some manual help a couple of times. But when I have, it just does not feel worth a dang, with no good sense of release. But maybe I do get to shoot out a little urine for fun, and of course standing up is required. All of that for me gives little incentive to stick a needle in it, so mostly I don't.
So as another important year is lost with zero sexual pleasure, I have been telling myself that maybe I'll subject myself to yet another surgery and all their possible complications and get that penile implant that so many folks seem so happy with, maybe a sling or AUS along with it so I won't have to worry about
peeing on my partner, which can really put a dent in the mood. But even if get an implant and it manages to work including a firm glans(seems to be some question about
that), - will it ever feel right even then? Does that improve at 2 years or 3 years? Lord I hope so, but tempus fugit. Maybe the sensation will improve, but I'm starting to kind of doubt it. Seems to me like I heard a lot from the surgeons about
how the sensation was not effected by cutting the erection nerves or RP in general. Sounds like total BS to me now, even though I know others have a MUCH different experience. But I can only go by the lack of pleasure from MY dead as a doornail, way more pain than pleasure from my injection induced so called erection that I have. I am extremely lucky though, no Peyronie's yet!
It does seem to me that- considering my G9, SV+. margin+ results, I am spectacularly lucky with my PSAs so far. So that surgical result has been good so far, and I am so grateful for that. But if I could have felt how these SEs (still a bit wet and totally limp and poor sensation) would feel before hand, and certainly if I could have seen my path report before hand(and maybe even if not), I just
feel like I would never let that surgeon near my privates with his knife and robot. When we got the path report, he told me I had no better than a 50% chance of not needing further treatment. Now that of course is NOT the same as a 50% chance of dying from PC. I have no idea of what that % is. But lets just say I have, after surgery, a 20% chance of dieing from PC in the next 10 or 15 years if a stroke or MI or other cancer does not kill me first. And lets say it can be shown those odds rise(if they actually do rise and I sort of doubt it) to 30 or 35% with RT primary. I say bring it own, I'd take that chance. (and considering I was not confined, my odds might even- also debatable- be improved with RT primary!) I'd rather have a few more years now with dry pants and my last few years of sex life and hoping for a break through in treatment, than a few more years tacked on to the end when so much of that stuff is fading naturally anyway, and spending those years with these SEs. That's how much I'd love to get rid of these SEs, that I'd trade them for a somewhat increased chance of dying some years in the future from PC before an MI can get me.
Apologies in advance for this long rant. Because I know that there are guys who do so much better, even trifecta guys. But if you are choosing the surgery for your G6, how can you possibly know you are going to be in that lucky group? And don't tell me it's just a matter of getting the right surgeon. We have at least one guy here who chose the most experienced guy in the nation maybe the world(7000 RRPs), who has published articles about
his trifecta results. And this man still had to have an AUS installed at 2 years out, and I'm not sure his nerve spared results were what one would hope for either. There are NO guarantees when you start cutting in those tight confines of the PC bed. Still, some(most?) of you will be lucky.
Gather info, and choose your poison. (although AS won't be a poison IF you don't spread) If you are low(or whatever) risk, get your doctor to spell out your risk of PC specific death if you go AS vs RT vs surgery. Maybe research it on your own or here. Then think a while and choose. Good luck and God bless!
Bill in MS
Post Edited (BillyBob@388) : 3/21/2015 7:49:17 PM (GMT-6)