I began formal sitting meditation practice in 1968...counting breaths 1-10, then 1-2, then "in,out" until I could just be "empty". I employed it as a sleep aid and as a way to get through moments of extreme anxiety. Thoughts are like bubbles floating up through the water - I just watch them go by, but I do not follow.
Then I began using it in my Taekwondo (martial arts) practice. I found that - if I could be "empty" in the ring, I was fast like lightening. I could do serious power breaks, I learned how invoke the Red Tunnel vision that accompanies a state of extreme rage and direct it at a stack of boards or a concrete block. (fun factoid - when I found out where the big red switch was to turn
on my rage, I also learned where to go to turn it
off!!)
I moved on to a "walking meditation" state when I become Empty whenever I have a moment or opportunity while I am doing something else routine. When I am waiting for the doctor or standing in line at the store, I meditate. The best recent session was my last bone scan. The technician noted how well I did in the scanner, asked if I would allow her to do a full 3 -D scan of my spinal column (no charge). Altogether I ended up under the scanner for a couple of hours (this past March). I became Empty and just lay there breathing and observing as my mind went places. I did not "attach" to any thoughts, just watched them float by. I
chose to consider it an
opportunity for an extended meditation session to my own profit. Extremely restful and calming experience.
It is supposed to take about
20 years of 20 minutes/day daily practice to measurably thicken the grey matter in your cerebral cortex and to gain the level of serenity that is the goal of the practice. It gives one a measure of control (or the illusion of control, which is almost as good) over the emotional impact of life events.
"Mindfulness" is "being here, now" or "being in the moment". Example: If you are eating, pay attention to every bite. Cut off a small piece of food, smell it, look at it before putting it in your mouth. Chew it thoroughly, taste it completely, then feel it go down your throat and into your stomach. Do not think of anything else while you are doing this. Stop and appreciate it for a moment before you do that again.
That is how I am dealing with stage 3&7/8
acinar adenocarcinoma. I understand and accept that it is now part of me and will likely eventually kill me (if something else doesn't first). I have learned a ton about
it in the last 5 years (part of that right here), have thought about
all of the ways it can kill me, how much it could hurt, all of the treatments and the side effects, what I will have to do to deal with that....on and on until it is no longer quite so scary as it was at first. I have a game plan in place for where I am with it now and other things for when/if it gets "bad". Daily meditation is a major part of that strategy.