Original post from Jitters99 on another thread:
Thank you warriors and friends. My heart is heavy with sadness. My hubby left me 7-5 at 5am with me holding every inch of his body I could possible grasp, and his two daughters holding his hands. I never every could of imagined the gaping hole his loss would create in my heart. I just knew that with his suffering that losing him would be much easier, that is not the case.
Our family has always done things " differently", and had promised Jim we would take him to see the Lone Ranger in his wheel chair, beings he was a cowboy in every way, I even have pictures oh him as a little boy dressed as Lone Ranger. So all of us went to see the Lone Ranger yesterday, as well as some of our friends on the West Coast in his honor. I made it through with even some laughing.
So afraid to sleep alone last night and afraid to cry all night I had my8 year old granddaughter sleep with me, she gave me so much strength and I slept well taking a Xanax. Today, my first full day with out him, and my west coast family leaving has been hard,with so much lack of sleep over the past last nights with him, I stayed in bed all day finally able to turn my phone on, and my computer to read so many comforting message.
My man was loved by so so many people. It didn't matter where he went he meant someone that developed into a friendship. I'm holding those memories tight, and thinking tomorrow I may be able to stand taller and take a few steps without doubling over in pain and tears. Thanks to everyone here who has listened over the many months, and my grand daughter Ellie and I are committed to fighting this cancer by bringing more awareness and raising more money next year. I did promise Jim I would go to my doctor visits this next week and get the open biopsy done on my throat, eat and take care of myself and move forward.
RIP Jim,until we meet again.