The Seeds Have Been Sown.

Pratoman said...
Caspar, sorry I woke you with my email, LOL. That's why I usually turn my phone off when I charge it overnight.

You think AMERICANS have a dry sense of humor? LOL, I always thought that about Brits. Till I met you.

I responded to your email reply.

I told you, you did not wake me. I was already awake contemplating leaving my nice warm to go have a pee.

My phone is on and by my bedside 24/7. Another long story that I may tell you one day. But don't let that stop you from mailing me at night. Honest it is no big deal.

Yep, got your reply ok. But will reply tomorrow morning. It will be there when you wake up

From yesterday.

@ Worried Guy.

The vision of you sat at the breakfast table reading that made me laugh so much it hurt.

Caspers Prostate Light Show goes viral on YouTube is another image to conjure with, but not at the breakfast table Jeff.

One of the best videos I saw on YouTube that went viral is “Charlie Bit My Finger” Do you know it? So funny and so cute.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HE4FJL2IDEs

And another viral video in case you liked that one. Maybe Logo can translate it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_JmA2ClUvUY

@ clocknut

LoL. I dont think they were sewn in. But I did notice a large staple gun on the desk while I was in the recovery room.. But lets not even go there.

@ A Yooper.

Hey Yoops. So you had 30 seeds less than me! I should imagine that is because your prostate was smaller. Have you any idea what the maximum number of seeds that can be used?

@ Tudpock18.

That thought is very scary indeed. But the first thing my son said when he came to pick me up was “Does this now mean that your pee will glow in the dark?”

@ InTheShop.

Andrew. I solved that problem today. I went and had a word with my pharmacist and he gave me some suppository’s. He said they were very gentle acting so as not to cause further problems, but after a couple of days they should heal and damage that may be up there. I have used two so far and the results are great.

GOP said...
Hope I'm not being repetitive, Casper. I tried to say this before: isn't it great that you can laugh about this now. In a few months, pc will be a distant memory. You made a great choice. For the love of God, I can't imagine why more guys don't frickin' make the same one.

Gop. I always like to look at the brighter side of life. I found that hard to do before my treatment because I was very worried about side effects. Now I am out the other side with no apparent SEs I feel that I can smile again. Although I am prepared for side effects in the future if I have been reading correctly. I have said this many times before, it has never been the cancer that has bothered me, but the gifts that one can get through treatment.

I have to agree with you on treatment choice though. After reading about so many guys having problems after surgery it does make me wonder why more don't opt for LDR. But then you also have to appreciate that LDR may not of been an option for some. What there PSA was. The size of there prostate. I know that both of these can be a determining factor. Of course there could also be the fact that LDR is not even available to some guys.

I also read about a lot of guys having to have salvage treatment after surgery because of positive margins that were missed at the time. The prostate bed appears to be the most common in that respect. The comforting thing about LDR is that it can radiate 3mm outside the prostate capsule, so if there was a slight positive margin at the time of treatment that could get zapped also. In my case this could be a possibility for the right side of my prostate. Time will tell.

With the above said, I think we should remember that PC treatment choice is a very personal thing and chosen for indavidual personal reasons. What one guy may be comfortable with may not work for the next. Therefore we must respect everybody and the choices they make. That is one thing this forum is very good at.

Thanks halbert. To be honest I was thinking of surgery myself. It was only when my guy told me he would have to cut wide on the right and that I would probably have long term ED problems that I changed my mind and went with LDR. Glad that I did because my pipe is already standing on occasions and raring to go. All that I hope now is that the seeds will reach anything that may of just crept out of the right side.

Nothing much to report today. My energy levels are still greatly reduced and I am not enjoying that part one bit. Also I have noticed that when I do have an erection the next time I have a pee there is a lot more blood. Also with an erection my shaft aches something terrible. Maybe I will have to try one of Peters bionic dongles.

Of course we do have to remember that the guys with problems are likely to be on the forum, whereas there are many, many guys who have the surgery and move on with few, if any problems. Personally,I could not abide the early SEs of surgery due to my profession..farming..simply can't be "out"for 6 weeks....so there are other considerations also as you allude to.

BenSam said...
Casper,

I am really pleased for u that the LDR has been a smooth
Path so far. It really does seem that the SEs have been minimal
For u to this point. Living positive and vulnerable is a real
Key for you. I could use e a lot more of that myself in dealing
With this. I am finding the peeing aspect to be most difficult to this
This point . Perhaps I am rushing all this too much.

You provide me w confidence! Hoping for better times!!

Hey BenSam. Thanks for dropping by.

Yes, at the moment I am very pleased with the results. The only differences I have noticed is the great lack of energy, blood in the urine and a strong pain in my shaft when I get an erection. I am expecting all these things to improve over the next couple of months.

Because of my lack of energy I have been feeling a bit down. I just don't like that feeling. My son came over today and took me back to his for a very nice Sunday lunch with some friends, it was great. I just got home and feeling so much better now. Like you I live alone and I think a lot of my problems at the moment is not having anybody here to talk with and share my feelings. Walls don't talk back. After today I am feeling pretty much normal again, so I am thinking that my energy problems could be a mental and not physical problem.

Another thing I am very happy about today is that I have been out for 7 hours today and not wanted a pee. Before my treatment I could do that with ease, so it looks like there is no change in that department. But as soon as I turned the key in my door the urge came on for a pee, just as it always has in the past. So my bladder control is still working perfectly.

BTW. I got your e,mail today thanks, but if it is ok with you I will reply tomorrow.

I hope you had a much better night last night. Look in your inbox when you get up in the morning.

Sweet dreams bro.

Thanks bigrich and Im glad that you find my posts helpful. Your numbers look pretty much the same as my own, so hopefully your treatment will produce good results also.

Making the treatment decision was very difficult for me, as it must be for most guys. Now that you have that part out the way just pull the trigger and don't look back.

I will continue posting updates in this thread but now on a weekly basis. If you have any further questions or concerns you can post here or you are welcome to e,mail me.

All the very best with your treatment. I think you have made a good choice.

well that would certainly explain the subtle depression I'm feeling. Well perhaps that and I've just been out for 3 days from my hdr . Of course you would think that would be balanced by the fact I don't have to shovel 20 inches of snow that fell over the past 40 hours.

Howdy Casper - thanks again for keeping us up to speed, and thus continuing to help the new guys like bigrich - that is indeed important. . . .

Glad to hear you continue to do well - my take on the being tired is simply a result of treatment. From the American Cancer Society: "Feeling tired: Radiation therapy may cause fatigue that may not go away until a few months after treatment."

I'd simply say roll with it, and to counter act it by being as active as you feel able to.

Hey Casper... did receive your email... slow to respond here. Feeling better today I am... learning one thing this recovery process is not .... a straight line of progress... its more of a bumpy 2 -steps forward, 1- step back process... keep learning every day..... learning about acceptance also. Venturing out for the first time today to pick up the dog.. gather some supplies.... before our next snow..

BenSam said...
Hey Casper... did receive your email... slow to respond here. Feeling better today I am... learning one thing this recovery process is not .... a straight line of progress... its more of a bumpy 2 -steps forward, 1- step back process... keep learning every day..... learning about acceptance also. Venturing out for the first time today to pick up the dog.. gather some supplies.... before our next snow..

No probs about a reply BenSam. Just as long as you got it ok.

Yes, I have been thinking the same myself today. No two days are the same. Yesterday I felt fine apart from going to bed at 9. Today no energy problems but my pipe has been aching all day and when I take a pee it hurts real bad then stings after. I wonder what joys tomorrow will bring.

Glad to hear that you are feeling better today. Small steps eh!

Dewayne. I also have an extra urge to pee. But does it hurt, burn or sting when you pee? I have not noticed any blood today either. I thought that would continue for more than six days!

Not checked my ejaculation yet. I am a bit scared about that, because every time I start to firm up the full length of my pipe hurts like crazy.

Just wanted to check in - sounds like you're doing a bit better.

The radiation fatigue hits everyone differently. I got it bad towards the end of my IMRT, but not everyone does. Mine got better within a couple of weeks of ending treatment.

A little extra sleep this week might be a good thing as would be walking as your able to.

Hang in there,
Andrew