I'm razin from Bangladesh
i dont know or Maybe I've forgotten to start a proper conversation anymore and right now i aint in my right mind cause the curse has drawn all my physical and mental energy out Thats what I'm about
to write the story of my life being so miserable at this stage of life
right now I'm sitting on my bed thinking of my misfortune cause it better to blame my fate at this stage
its been almost a year that I'm sick and this sickness doesnt seem to cure i know its pointless for me to write here as i aint demanding any sort of help of assistance if someone provides I'll be more than happy but its just sharing my story
its a fact that I used to get sick frequent even in the past but i never paid heed but what came to my concern back in last January that its normal i aint what i used to be I've been changed my bodily function aint proper anymore my symptoms started to gather one by one what i haven't done I was pretty sure that i was going to die i was convinced that something was seriously wrong with me i used to cry alone i managed money and rushed to doctors i started having tests but doctors were unable to make a proper diagnosis i was kept untreated it worried me more what I've been through in past 6months will be memorable forever its like living in Hell the immense worry and pain i've been through still haunts me still I'm living wits massive complications and looking forward to find a solution my life is even more miserable as i live in Bangladesh this country is the worst country ever .its so unhyginec and unhealthy what i have investigated by researching the medical forums and pages i may be steering from an auto immune disease most possibly thyroid . My symptoms are given below:
heart palpitation, fluttering , throbbing , ectopic beat strong pulse rapid pulse movement
chest tightness breathing problem (i have asthma since childhood)
chest pain
muscle twitching muscle pain pain everywhere
feeling sore worn out and broken so weak
numbness tingling
headache dizziness
heat intolerance (i cant even tolerate light heat)
chills feeling feverish
temperature imbalance
red eyes watery eyes vision problem cant look at bright light cant look through sunlight
weakness in hands and legs
nausea bowel trouble
excessive gas production
constipation/loose stool
feeling so anxious/nervous/brain foggyNess i Forget everything my memory has gone down too low i used to have very strong memory now i Forget even day to DAY things i Forget normal stuffs normal words i Forget names equations datas infos movies that I've watched i Forget ppl's name their addresses even when we met i Forget i just Forget everythin i cant concentrate i cant pay attention i sweat so much yet i get so cold my hands and feet shake i tremble my forehead gets so hot my hair is falling out i am losing weight i get frequent panic attacks I'm sad depressed and off 24/7 my vision is so poorly i get runny nose sneeze much sometimes in a word my whole body has been working wrong for past 6months althougt it even started earlier now mylife has been so worn out i lost places i got fired up from everywhere my parents my society everywhere I'm now an ****** for being this much sick i wish i could heal i wish i could get back my energy someone help me plz
investigations that I've done with help of some doctors &the knowledge gained by going through lots of web pages medical groups forums journals and many more online stuffs:-
I've ruled out all possible causes and tests
blood tests done including CBC, electrolytes sugar thyroid panel (tsh,tt3,tt4) , billirubin creatinine
x rays of chest sinus and KUB region
ultrasonogram of whole abdomen
urine for re
ECG of heart
ct scan of brain
all the tests came back normal and my restless unstoppable pain and nervousness just stretched ahead
i suspected million times it can caused by thyroid as I've been researching on thyroid disorder for so long all my symptoms just make me remind of thyroid . All my symptoms indicate hyperthyroidism. For instance my tsh has dropped in 2 years total t3 and t4 both r in range though but what I've learned is someone can be hyper even with normal lab results besides that free t3 is the key indicator . But i couldn't get to measure that
my tsh was 2.06 uIU in 2012 and it has been dropped down to 1.1 uIU back in June this year i always have had hyper symptoms from the past i use to sweat way more than other ppl but it never bothered me i thought Thats how my body was but this year all other complications gathered one by one . I suspect i may have an auto immune disorder Thats ruining my life. I'm so down and poorly lately however i managed to lead life before with mild less severe problems but right now its uncontrollable. I have days on which i get my symptoms less tiring i mean some days r lil good some days r worse i get much sleep but yet I'm tired my appetite is not settled sometimes i get so hungry sometimes i starve I'm losing weight lately. My skin is thin dry and so sensitive my whole body is so sensitive I'm sad sick anxious all the time thoughts race throughout my head sometimes i feel like my heads about
to explode my vision is so poor i get itchy watery eyes everymorning after i wake up my eyes burn and get irritated easily and stays slight red sometimes i cant focus on a thing my brain is dysfunctioning my head hurts and my body is so weary like if u hit me mildly i feel like I've been hit by a bus or something even when i lay straight it slightly hurt my body aint flexible i cant breathe well after i eat it gets worse anyway in order to keep my writing short i have to stop now i guess
by the way my ESR is slightly elevated.
ESR (in 2012): 5mm (1st hr)
ESR(last June): 21mm (1st hr)
THANKS FOR READING THIS
-RAZIN
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