theklep said...
Hey Mad, just like everyone else on the board be aware that this is something that takes time to get used to. I was diagnosed a few months ago and I am still adjusting, but I have a mild case like you, and with my medication I am fine and lead a normal life. You shouldn't let it get you down, at first I was like, "Great now my life is screwed". But than after dealing with it and getting the correct meds I am fine and sometimes forget I have UC. It is really about working with the meds and making sure foods agree with you. Also I think I might a victim of Augmentin as well having had a bad case of pneumonia and being on heavy anti-biotics, totally know how you feel. Hang in there I'm 23, its not the end of the world. Just take those meds! :)
Yea I'm in that stage right now "Great my life is screwed". I'm 26, I surf alot, snowboard, rock climb, and I love traveling. And for the past 2 months I've done none of those things. I feel extremly lucky that this is only affecting such a small part of my colon (the last few inches before the exit) but I'am SOOOOOOOOO scared that it will spread.
The urgency I have to go is awful. And it's only when my stool hits right before exit so I don't have to suffer long. I absolutly cannot imagine having that urgent feeling from further up the colon. I really think I would crap myself. Plus my stool's are always hard so I'm sure that aggrevates the inflamed tissue even more.
My doc said this could be my only bout for life, or it could spread, or it could stay the same on and off. And I'm not good with uncertainity. I have anxiety so I'm always a worst case thinker in the begining. I'm trying so hard not to fall into "I'm ****ed...this is just gonna get worse and I'm gonna have to quit my job and my girlfriend is gonna want to leave me.....and I can't blame her!".
Again, I know I don't have it anywhere near as bad as some. These are all my what if's. I never wanted to rely on medication for anything. I don't even take Tylenol! And now I have to take Asacol for life?!!!! And then there's the possible side effects from that! I could end up on more med's just to fix the problems from that!
Trying to breathe!!!...........