Posted 6/27/2011 2:04 AM (GMT 0)
Gina-I don't have a lot of time tonight (my husband has been out of town since Thursday and both my kids have been sick with a stomach bug and I am 7 months pregnant-needless to say, I am heading to bed soon), but I wanted to tell you that I understand.
When I was first diagnosed, I had a crappy GI who didn't know that much about the disease and did not explain it well to me. I had never had any health problems before this diagnosis. Heck, I never took anything more potent than advil or tylenol aside from having meds for c-sections! So the idea of having to be on meds forever was something I just had not considered feasible for *my* life. And thus, once I got into my first remission, I stopped taking the meds. And I didn't know that was a bad idea. But oh how it was. Taking a few pills a day is NOTHING compared to what I have been through since-and had I stayed on the maintenance drugs and gotten the info I needed about the disease, my UC may not have progressed to the point it has. So please do find out what meds you can effectively use for maintenance and stay on them unless and until you have some experience under your belt with this disease, and can figure out if there are any diet/supplement tricks that work for you. (and they do not work for everyone-you will find that the only thing we really have in common in terms of our health around here is that we all have a disease by the same name. But my UC and your UC are quite different in terms of what our triggers are, how bad our flares are, and what treatments work, etc)
Another thing I never thought I would ever do before this disease, and even immediately after, was regularly use rectal meds. But let me tell you, they can be a Godsend. They don't all work the same for all people-for example, steroid rectals make things worse for me, canasa works well and rowasa-5ASA enema-does not work for me. So again, you have to play around with what works and what doesn't for you-but they are worth using.
You will have to find a new normal. I have. I have had times in my life in these recent years when I felt badly for myself, and there is no doubt that I would love to not have this disease, but there are some things about my life that have really improved since I accepted that this is my new lot. I used to be a very very stressed out person. But stress is a big trigger for me, and I can't have it in my life like that anymore, so I have been forced into finding ways of keeping it away and handling it differently when it is unavoidable. Antibiotics are another trigger for me, so I have found preventative measures for staying healthy, and I am definitely in good health aside from the UC! Also, I am so much more vocal now about my health. I am my own advocate, whereas before I just blindly followed whatever the docs told me. I have found acupunture and some other alternative therapies that have had a huge impact in my overall quality of life. I am not happy I have UC, but my life on the whole is much happier now than it ever has been before because of the changes I have had to make because of the UC. But that doesn't mean it is easy to accept. You have a chronic illness now, and it will take time to process it all, come to terms with what that means in your life and find peace with it.
My biggest advice would be to not make any drastic changes with your meds and such before you do more research and find out more about the disease and various treatments of it. And this forum is an excellent place for information!!!