I hear you. I was nervous about
taking MTX as well so I completely understand. I took it on Friday night initially as well. The NP answered any questions I had at the time, sent me info and encouraged me to look it up online (sites that are for RA and Crohn's, not chemo). Even so, I had to go to the doctor's to "learn" how to give an injection of MTX to myself and I was nervous the whole time, not because of the injection but because of the MTX.
The medication has a lot of restrictions which can be a pain along with the monthly blood tests. They also encourage you to get flu shots, pneumonia shots and stuff like that. Tylenol should be ok, but that never made sense to me as this medication tends to be heard on your liver. I took it for several months regularly for a back issue I had and the GI and PC doctor were fine with it and my liver counts were fine. I don't know about Lorazapam. It's best to ask the pharmacist about both though just to make sure.
I survived it, and from what I hear from my GI, lots of people do well on it. I had some side effects which caused me to stop it, but nothing life threatening, it just made me miserable after about 2 years (and to a much lesser extent before that). I go to an IBD center so they see a lot of how people react on these medications.
I was trying to stay off the biologics so it was the lesser of 2 evils for me. In my case I just tried to find a balance between feeling well and the medications. Unfortunately now I'm on Humira, but what can you do. I feel pretty good.
Mary